Forever lol I remember when I was right young I went to see my great grandad at his 101st birthday and thought that was forever lol
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Forever lol I remember when I was right young I went to see my great grandad at his 101st birthday and thought that was forever lol
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till 40, and i'm 33 already
When I was young and still somewhat happy (20+ years ago), I thought I was going to live to be well over 80.
As I got older and started to feel depressed about life, I was hoping to die at any moment, and I honestly thought I would commit suicide within the next year or so. Then as I got a little older still, and my emotions calmed down somewhat, I realized my bad habits had probably taken a toll on my life span, and figured I would probably die at 65 or 70.
Looking back now, I'd say that assumption was probably very optimistic. Though I have had family members who were smokers and alcoholics and lived well into their 70s, so who knows?
Not long. The future was uncertain. Passively suicidal since I was 10. I was too focused on family issues to concern myself with the world outside and when I stepped out I felt like I wasn't ready to deal with people in any way beyond a short simple casual conversation. I was so naive that I thought everyone in the world was kind and caring. A very rude awakening.
Maybe I'm too sensitive. I never wanted to hurt anyone growing up but in this world it's difficult to live without what people call 'human nature', the animal inside. I always wanted peace but never knew how to create it especially in my surroundings.
No one chooses to fuck up their life. None wants to commit suicide, it's a way out of misery.
Look at the gears of this world and you will see why people turn suicidal.
In the end, do not be sorry for we are sorry we did not create a more humane world for you.
Humanity: Do no physical or psychological harm and respect personal space. A good start. :ok:
Everything I think, say and do are monitored.
About Me- :fire:
I never thought I would live beyond 22 or 23. I always secretly hoped for a tragic but quick death. I am now 32 and God has not granted me my wish yet.
When I was a child, under 13, I wanted to die. I thought I'd live forever and feel the way I felt.
When I was a teenager, I was certain I wasn't going to live until I was 20, due to circumstances.
When I hit 17 and realized I was an adult, I was positive I wouldn't live past my mid-twenties, due to circumstances.
When I was in my early 20s I was sure I wouldn't live past those, either.
By the time I hit my late 20s I was sure I was going to live, even if I didn't want to.
I'm in my late 40s now, and figure if I'll probably die naturally, who knows when, due to medical advancements and pharmaceuticals, like most people. I also figured out that I really don't want to die, I just want things to change, because its usually situational when I'm this depressed. So now I try and figure out ways to change the situations. Some situations are more difficult than others, sometimes changing them is harder, or finding a way to do it. But it can be done. And I just allow myself to vent and feel suicidal, and keep trudging onwards.
“Real misanthropes are not found in solitude, but in the world; since it is experience of life, and not philosophy, which produces real hatred of mankind”
~ Giacomo Leopardi ~"If you're not angry, you're not paying attention."
~ Unknown ~"What could be more desperate and tragic than choosing a mental illness as the only way to be heard?"
~ Susan J. Dunlap ~“Insanity is the only sane reaction to an insane society.”
~ Thomas Szaz ~
14 years old. I was so close in my 20s but noooo stupid body. Now older and still hopeful
I have always felt a sense of doom for some reason and that I would maybe die young even at a very young age I remember thinking this way.
Very nearly did not pass 21, now I just live each second as it comes and see what happens. I try not to place too much emphasis on the living or dead these days.
Even when I am alone I will go on, even though it hurts.
I am glad to be with everyone; I am glad to have been with everyone.
<-----Your resident PowerPuff representative ----->
For some reason I thought 2073 would be a good year to die. This would make me 85.
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