
Originally Posted by
catecholamine
Ugh!! I have Bipolar 1 and it completely screwed up my life. I get angry when people have a mood swing and are like "I need to go to the doctor, I must be bipolar". I explain to them, as calmly as possible, that mania has to last at least 1 week (less if hospitalized for it) and has to seriously disrupt their life to be classified as mania. And, for bipolar 2, hypomania must last at least 4 days (this is all according to the DSM-IV). I'm too lazy to go into Cyclothymia, but you get the drift. It annoys the hell out of me when people throw around bipolar like that, acting like bipolar 1 can be as simple as mood swings. I've had hallucinations, had delusions and paranoia - thought people were following me and after me, it was terrifying. I would take out credit cards and max them out in a day buying $900 TVs, $1,800 computers, and so on....when I am normally very careful with my money, clipping coupons and stalking sales. I would sleep 30 mins a night or less. I would tell any stranger all my personal information and stuff about my life, anything and everything, just talk talk talk. It really fucked up my life. I'm still paying on the credit cards.
Then there's the depression side of it, it's been pure hell. After 2 years of alternating between mania and depression (mostly depression), I'm slowly now climbing out of my hole and finding some stability, and that only in the past 2 weeks. 3 weeks ago, I was off my meds and psychotic, stabbing myself and so on before I was hospitalized. It's been a hard 2 years with 17 hospitalizations. Bipolar ruined my life in a lot of ways. Now my parents call me every single day, constantly I'm afraid I'm going to kill myself. If I don't feel like talking or whatever, they freak out asking me if I'm okay, really okay, and so on and call me multiple more times that day, thinking I'm going to try to kill myself. It has vastly upset my family. It has cost me a lot financially as well, as I said. It has been a rough road and it makes me angry to see people trivialize it as just simple mood swings. I try to remember that it is simply out of ignorance. Still, I wish people were more educated on what Bipolar really is.