Constantly tortured

[Kinglonely]

I am new hear because I think I burned the last bridge I had. My thoughts are constantly wrapped around eternal sleep and I feel the thoughts may turn to action. I have nothing left in this world and for someone like me it is impossible to succeed. Hopeless, alone, and fearful is how I am living my life. I don't know what to do anymore because I've tried all outlets of help and nothing sticks. I don't know what being on here will accomplish but I just had to get these thoughts out. I know I sound like a whiner and that bothers me that I'm do worried about my small problems when there are much bigger things going on around.

[WildCherry]

Welcome to SF. And BTW, you don't sound like a whiner. What happened to make you feel like you've burned your last bridge?

[Kinglonely]

Big argument with the last friend that had my back. Just got fired from work for substance abuse. Constantly pushing everyone away.

[Whispers]

Hello and welcome to SF, KingLonely. Pleasure to have you heere and look forward to getting to know you and listening to your peoblems.

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Hi Kinglonely and welcome to SF. I don't think you're a whiner at all. It's good to talk about your problems and let some of the feelings out. I hope you will be able to find this forum helpful.

[Kinglonely]

I just don't have it in me anymore. There's a big part of me that is at peace. I used to worry about what would happen but now I'm ready. I am the exact opposite of how to live a life. A wasted smart brain that could of accomplished a lot but was always afraid of what other people thought. If there is one lesson I have to give it is to go after what you want and try to take it. I never tried and it's too late. Alone I live in this world as I willingly let all of my friends walk out on me and pushed them away. I am at peace though.

[obsessed78]

You post title caught me. Constantly tortured. Thats how I feel. Everything is too hard. You say you got fired for substance abuse. Was that from anti depressants or alcohol? You dont have to tell me if thats too private. Im new here so just getting a feel of what ppl talk about.