My mom always smokes cigarettes and coughs

[ShyGuyDeluxe]

Heyy, austin, what headphones are they? Can ya link me to them? http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_no...ise+cancelling

Aw, thank you, guys. Gr, my mom told me to just walk where a dead bug was, without cleaning the spot first (which I did,) and yet she told me Grandma and Grandpa that my lovely girlfriend is "Filthy" when she was listing all the things she doesn't like about my girlfriend, which made them get disgusted and stop talking about her. Even though she showers daily and is busy working around the house and cleaning it up all day, daily.

And I still think my mom does that stuff for attention. After all, the SUXY doctor I think I stopped going to, kept on telling me to "Stop breathing like that" until I stopped wheezing. He always just tells his assistant about how I have the mental disease known as Aspberger's Syndrome and tells me I'm fine. I keep telling my mom every single day to PLEASE call my old doctor that I love, that my girlfriend's mom also loves, but my mom keeps not calling him (I've never had a friend, I'm too shy to call anyone by myself.)

I'm all paranoid about my body, I have been ever since I was about to turn 23, since on the ghost-talking Ouji board thingy, my brother made a ghost say that I was going to die when I was 23 years old. I'm older than that now, but I'm under 98 pounds and I have to have the air conditioner on at night so I don't hear my parent's tv, and it makes me body pulse all over, and blah..

My good old doctor used to give me anti-paranoria pills to take at night time, but on wikipedia it said the side-effects include shrinking of the brain mass size, and shortened life span, so I never took the pills I got a subscription for.

I'm just rambling, maybe, I don't know, but anyways, I'm freaking lonely. I wish my dad bought me a car last month on my birthday. And my mom is coughing now, awah. The ticking of a ticking clock bothers me too. GAH, she coughed again. I sent 120 pages of me complaining about my mom, to my girlfriend, but she's never commented on it. I'm so worried about my body, I miss being young when my body didn't twitch and stuff.

And I'm still ticked off that my mom told my Grandma and Grandpa negative stuff about my girlfriend, including that she's "Filthy," when I shower once every 3 months and change the bed sheets once every month, when my mom and dad set that stuff up for me, and yet my girlfriend seemed like the cleanest girl I know. My mom said she doesn't want my girlfriend to take her away from her. When I lay down in bed with my mom, her two legs move around and she makes weird noise and I freaking hope she's not freaking masturbating over me or some shiz, ever since we saw Dexter episodes where Dexter and his sister have an incestous relationship, it always seems like my mom is freaking attracted to me, and I don't like it.

I wish I had friends offline, and online, although I have no idea how to talk to people (that's why I never talked to some girl that had a crush on me, back when I was single,) and STUFF!

I just felt like rambling. I miss posting in my livejournal online, but I stopped posting in it a year ago when I realized it's pointless since no one visits meh online journal, so I guess I rambled here purrhaps, anyways meow. (I say random words when I don't know what to say, although everyone online thinks I'm trolling them because of that, blah.)

Blah, and the only good pajama bottoms I have, have a hole where my crotch is. I wish I could get my mom to fix them. The other pajamas my mom bought me are too tight, in fact my socks and everything are too small and tight now, but online ex-girlfriends have told me I'm "Pathetic" in 2004, so I don't deserve to do stuff on my own, bu anyways, blah.

And my computer chair is really bad for my back, it just leans back. The last computer chairs I had were bad too. I wish I had a computer chair that supported my back sitting up, more. My mom said before that all I know how to do is complain (the b cuss word, actually,) blah.

[ShyGuyDeluxe]

Grrr, my Mom keeps coughing loudly from cigarettes for attention, and it always wears me out and makes me tired, she tries to do that and expects me to want to sleep when she does, and anyways blaaah... I don't like being worn out from hearing my mom's annoying coughs, blah.

[AlienBeing]

Grrr, my Mom keeps coughing loudly from cigarettes for attention, and it always wears me out and makes me tired, she tries to do that and expects me to want to sleep when she does, and anyways blaaah... I don't like being worn out from hearing my mom's annoying coughs, blah.

Funny, I started reading this thread and knew the post before you said so, that you had Asperger's. I think it comes from reading other people on here with Asperger's. There's a commonality in the way you tend to perserverate on things, paying no heed to anything anybody says about it. I know you probably can't help it, and probably won't do it, but you've been given some good advice here and you might try to take some of it. It's hard to say whether your perception of what is going on is accurate or not. I knew another girl on another forum who swore her mother coughed to annoy her. I find it doubtful that someone who is on oxygen and still smoking is coughing purposely to annoy her son even if it seems to you like she can stop when your Dad gets home.

[ShyGuyDeluxe]

Gah, now my mom is coughing mad loud on purpose, just to get me mad. It is on purpose, she tells me her grandma always punched her across cement basement floors when she always got in trouble when I freak out at her, and threatens to punch me in the face, but anyways she was just coughing downstairs because she's going to work in 2 hours, and OW MY eyes keep PULSING BADLY from the stress of hearing my mom do that cough, I wish I could record her cough for you guys, cuz it's soo annoying, and she kept on telling me that I annoy my doctor that I love, a LOT today, to make me feel bad, and she keeps coughing to make me feel bad that she smokes cigarettes, oh gawd.

a female that doesn't believe in me reminds me of .. my ex-girlfriend er .. no my ex-girlfriend ... was SUPAH bad when she broke up with me .. I is so scarred from it.. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH MY MOM keeps COUGHING NOW ... I want to SLEEP, but how can I when the last thing that I would hear is my mom annoyingly coughing!? O GAWD ;-; =( ARGH, CURSS cigarette-smoking moms, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH SHE'S COUGHING ARGH AARGH ARGH ARGGH =(

[ShyGuyDeluxe]

Grrr, I didn't sleep since yesterday, and I was gonna go to sleep, but my mom KEEPS COUGHING SUPER FREAKING LOOUDLY annoyingly, and she keeps smoking cigarettes all day, and she does it with the bathroom window closed the whole time and afterwards. She says having the window open will blow the cigarette smoke into the house more. I'm wheezing as I type this, like MAAAAAAD, from second-hand smoke, oh well.

And my computer chair does not support my back at ALL, I just lean forward cuz the chair goes wayyy back. Does anyone know any good computer chairs?

ACK My feet/leg veins are pulsing like a MANIAC! As my mom keeps coughing. I need a better computer desk so I can have my legs down when I sit. And my back hurts and my Mom keeps coughing sooo loudly ear-piercingly annoyingly.

[ShyGuyDeluxe]

and now my dad is cheating on my mom.. With the mother of a girl I had a crush on in 7th grade.

It's so depressing, always being up at night and being SO ALONE AND DEPRESSED =( and when it's not night, my mom is always coughing from smoking cigarettes every day and being noisy and annoying.

I'm so lonely and Depressed =(

[ShyGuyDeluxe]

gosh, now I believe my mom masturbates when she asks me to lay next to her, which of course is followed by me moving into my room to sleep. GOSH. I have no friends at all. =(

[ShyGuyDeluxe]

I always wake up at night time, when my mom is sleeping, then be up all night being depressed..

It's 5AM and I've been depressed the entire night, I feel so lonely and stupid, how do you people feel better?

[ShyGuyDeluxe]

Gosh, I stayed up all night getting drunk which I've only done for the 3rd time in my life, and kept puking all night long, and just went to bed.

Yet I had to get out of bed cuz my MOM KEPT coughing.

It made me make an angry noise, making my entire body pulse and twitch, so I got up and kept telling her to STOP IT, and she kept telling me it's MY FAULT and that she's coughing ONLY because she 'took her medicine' (an inhaler that I always have taken since I was a kid for Asthma and it never makes me cough) and then kept telling me it's MY fault for drinking that I get mad that she WON'T STOP COUGHING EVERY SINGLE SECOND from the 6 cigarettes she smokes a day/night. But my online best friend told me yesterday that he expects me to snap from my mom being insane and BLAH. My counselor said it would be mandatory to report my mom to authorities, but I'm an adult so she don't have to. And... I can't say more, no one's responded for awhile but anyways..

My online best friend isn't even on now, like he keeps doing, and I have NO ONE TO TALK TO ;-;.

[VikKalmbach]

I don't think the noises are for your attention. First of all I can tell your brilliant, and I'll be your online friend if you'd like and never get mad at you for something. It's also very easy to say anything, to anyone from behind a computer.

I don't want to get to personal but what is your situation ? Do you work? You mentioned a counsellor, is this someone you see privately?