Ok so I'm Bipolar, only just got diagnosed not on any medication yet as I just moved for uni. Moved in with my flatmates on Saturday and I think I need to say something because they have noticed my behaviour is weird. But is it too soon? They seem really nice and I'm usually so good at making new friends but my behaviour is being rather erratic due to the stress of moving and everything etc. I'm doing Psychology and one of my flatmates is too. We get on and go out but my behaviour is still odd, rapid cycling. Like I laugh a lot when I'm manic and I have been doing that and I think they find it odd, and on Sunday I was really low. I feel so so SO anxious and I think that contributes too, as when I'm anxious often I try and act like I'm not and overemphasise that. I did a lot of pacing today. Another thing is I drink a lot and I know students are meant to but my housemates don't that much (although we have been out) so I can't even disguise it as that. I'm not even as bad as I can be, I can be so much worse and if that happens I don't know what I can do.
I know I need to get meds and stop drinking so much and I will do, I'm looking into seeing a local doctor but for now what can I do. I want to stop being so odd and start being more normal but it's so much harder than that. Do I tell them, or even one of them? I'm living with them for a year, and I would like to have people want to live with me next year. I just think also that now I'm living on my own I might break down, I think I need someone to know due to that as well. Please help me. Feeling a bit low now, got round here by counting crows on repeat.