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Do you know how to enlarge your "view" by holding down the CTRL key and spinning your mouse wheel UP one click at a time? Doing that only affects your screen but not how the post will appear on the board. How do you do this on a laptop?
I had no idea there was diary here, where is it?
flowerchild, you're good for me
i'm not single, nor am i anywhere near being over 55, but i DO know how to fix your problem of not being able to read the screen when looking at stuff on the internet.
if you are on a laptop, press "CTRL" and then "+". every time that you do it, the writing on the screen becomes bigger.
if you need to make it smaller again, press "CTRL" and "-", which is next to the "+".
to make it back to the original size, you press "CTRL" and the number "0"
TDM
To get to the diaries: start at the Forums tab on the menu bar. Scroll down to the Emotional Support section, they are in Let it all out...
That's KEWL. I'm glad I'm good for somebody because I'm certainly not good for myself!Originally Posted by Rubydo
flowerchild, you're good for me
Rubydo, my deepest sympathies on the loss of your beloved dog. Getting my precious pooch out of foster care was the impetus to get me out of the hospital. When she died, it was only the knowledge that I needed to pick up her ashes that kept me going through those first awful days. Once I had her home again, I just kept on plugging away because I had promised her as a puppy that she'd have a forever home. And I so admire you for looking for another dog. It's been nearly 7 years, and I cannot yet bring myself to do so. No matter how much love and fun we might share, I know I do not have it in me to watch another animal die. Bless you for opening your heart again. Single, pushing Medicare age, wondering where to go from here.
I'm only 51, but feel over 55 :/... is that OK?
I don't have anything left - long story and part of the cause of my depression.
I guess I'm gonna handle the holidays by removing myself from most of the activities - I have no money to buy gifts so I feel like a loser regardless of whether or not anyone says anything about it. I also have social anxiety disorder...I'm also an empath and parties / large groups of people make me feel raw and drained.
Most of my best memories come from childhood. I was raised on a little farm, with both parents. My mother was an amazing woman, and I lost her when I was 27, although she had alzheimers disease diagnosed when I was 15. I really enjoyed the years when my son was small, and my siblings had small children too. They were magical and full of kid fun!
My greatest accomplishment was getting my bachelors degree. Although it's in communication studies and not worth the paper it's printed on, I graduated with a 3.5 in my major.
Right now I'm on autopilot, waiting to see if I'll qualify for disability (I just got out of the nuthouse a couple weeks ago after attempting suicide). I can't think of a single thing that's keeping me going.
61. no kids. never been married. I sort of adopted children of my heart. Thats what I called them. But they are gone from my life now. i have a couple of friends. I see one of them twice a year. Another one will talk with me as long as we only talk about her. And then another who is very physically ill who i try to help. I have an elderly mother who atm is not in good health. But am hoping she will make a good recovery. 9 times out of 10 when my phone rings its a telemarketer or a wrong number. So I do think i am alone.
Last edited by flowers; 24th December 2012 at 06:07 AM.
55, married once, widowed, no kids, 55 (56 next month), some family (younger sisters). I don't like the idea of the next 20-25 years. I had few friends to start with (sort of the loner type), and less now that I can easily talk about suicide attempts, psych wards, depression and other meds. More later, I need another cup of tea with my meds, maybe a smoke, then bed.
Whatsthepoint1, I don't why, but your post stands out to me for some reason. Your not alone. Autopilot works for awhile. Sometimes for me I forget how to shut it off. I happened on another post a ( a song) bit ago that I can't get out of my head. So I thought I'd just pass it along.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature...&v=btH4fRBfN-U
I care. ;-)
I identify with you in many ways. I adopted many 'godchildren' over the years and accepted that they would move on. Haven't had one for a while. There were a few young people who thought a woman on her own would benefit them financially. I've been like you too with friends. As long as we talked about them or I could do something for them fine. When I needed to talk they were busy. This is a real whinging moan. Have been in tears this a.m. , normally keep them at bay. Tried phoning a suicide hotline. After 22minutes THEY ended the call politely. No reason I know of other than the person felt as everyone does about me.
No one comes on this thread often so will ramble away to keep the tears and worse at bay. The tears started after
I accidentally discovered a young relative had died just over a year ago at the age of 20. Hadn't seen him since his christening so the tears were ones of self pity for myself.
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