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    Thread: Why can't i die?

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      Why can't i die?

      On new Year's Eve while driving on a busy highway i was hit by a hit-n-run tractor trailer. Yet again i did not die but i am left to deal with the consequences. Terrified to drive, nightmares, pain. Too many times i should have died and haven't and i just can't get it all through my head. i need to die i'm just tired of living through hell all the time and just waiting for the next thing to happen. Nothing good ever does. So why is it that i can't die. Suicide only amounts to an attempt but i will have to try anyway. i just can't take it any more.

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      Re: Why can't i die?

      Hi neverlived, :smile:

      How do you feel today?

      I can understand, how you feel, for me nothing works either. It's so weird, some people are so lucky.

      But why do we Live? No one knows!

      marthijn

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      Re: Why can't i die?

      I ask myself the same exact question. I come to an answer-it is not my time yet. But that does not stop me from trying to get out of this cruel, cold world.
      Take comfort in others that also feel your pain.
      maybe in the next 6 months something great will happen to you.
      If you were gone, it would happen to another person.
      sending Love and hug,
      TLA

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      Re: Why can't i die?

      I'm glad your were alright.

      Just hang in there, try to do something. Take it one step at a time. I will gladly talk anytime you need to vent or need someone to talk to.

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      Re: Why can't i die?

      Hi Neverlived...I am so sorry about your accident...a year ago, I too was hit by a car in a hit and run...left on the side of the road, injured and so frightened...I have begun to climb back (not too fast as I can only walk 3 blocks at a time which are 3 blocks more than 4 months ago) and I am trying to put aside the rage that someone would do this...I guess sometimes in life crap happens...please let us know how you are doing...big hugs, Jackie
      Kindness in words creates confidence.
      Kindness in thinking creates profoundness.
      Kindness in giving creates love. (Laotzu)

      Words have the power to both destroy and heal.
      When words are both true and kind, they can change our world. (Buddha)

      If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion. (HH The Dalai Lama)

      If you can, help others; if you cannot do that, at least do not harm them. (HH The Dalai Lama)

      It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell. (Buddha)

      You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. (Buddha)





      Taxing the poor can NEVER be a solution to our economic problems...wake up people!

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      Re: Why can't i die?

      Sadeyes,
      i would but this is not my first accident. The first one happened in 10/04 when someone pulled out in front of me and blocked my lane. i haven't recovered from that yet. Now the nightmares are so bad i can't sleep at all.
      Then there are all the other times. i enjoyed driving. i enjoyed being able to get in my car and get away from the ppl that were bothering me. Now i am terrified to even look at my car. Right now though problems mount because it is a probability that i may lose my house. So much so screwed up in my head i just can't bear it any more. This just goes on and on but i left my will to go on somewhere else.
      neverlived

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      Re: Why can't i die?

      It seems that you were not even allowed to recover from one accident before the other...I am so sorry...let me know if I can be there for you...big hugs, Jackie
      Kindness in words creates confidence.
      Kindness in thinking creates profoundness.
      Kindness in giving creates love. (Laotzu)

      Words have the power to both destroy and heal.
      When words are both true and kind, they can change our world. (Buddha)

      If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion. (HH The Dalai Lama)

      If you can, help others; if you cannot do that, at least do not harm them. (HH The Dalai Lama)

      It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell. (Buddha)

      You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. (Buddha)





      Taxing the poor can NEVER be a solution to our economic problems...wake up people!

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      Re: Why can't i die?

      Quote Originally Posted by Sadeyes
      Suicide only amounts to an attempt but i will have to try anyway. i just can't take it any more.

      What can't you take anymore?? Not judging you, just curious...i cannot take it either, so I was wondering what pulled you down? Was it others or feeling powerless? It would help for ppl to purge their feelings. I make 3 attemtps on Christmas. I am ready to succeed now. I love life, but I hate Bi-Polar and the effects. I cannot deal with all this shit. We do care for each other !!
      TLA

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      Re: Why can't i die?

      TLA,
      What i can't take anymore is my life. My whole life has been one thing after another.You would have to go to my posts to understand. i just can't talk about any of it anymore. i'm finished trying to fix what was destroyed long ago.
      neverlived

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      Re: Why can't i die?

      Originally Posted by Sadeyes
      Suicide only amounts to an attempt but i will have to try anyway. i just can't take it any more.

      Just as a point of information...I do not remember ever posting this...in fact, I am further from this position than I have ever been in my life...I do understand these feelings, as I have clearly been there in the past, but today, I am climbing out of the dark abyss and starting to live life for the first time since I was three...I felt I had to clarify this...Jackie
      Last edited by Sadeyes; 10th January 2006 at 09:13 AM.
      Kindness in words creates confidence.
      Kindness in thinking creates profoundness.
      Kindness in giving creates love. (Laotzu)

      Words have the power to both destroy and heal.
      When words are both true and kind, they can change our world. (Buddha)

      If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion. (HH The Dalai Lama)

      If you can, help others; if you cannot do that, at least do not harm them. (HH The Dalai Lama)

      It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell. (Buddha)

      You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. (Buddha)





      Taxing the poor can NEVER be a solution to our economic problems...wake up people!

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