One of the main reasons I want to commit suicide is due to the fact that I hate myself.
Does anyone else feel this way?
I hate myself because I don't have the ability to be the person I want to be.
I want to be confident, compassionate, successful, kind, honorable, funny, athletic, altruistic, benevolent, hard-working, attractive, happy, successful, outgoing, lovable, genuine, and intelligent. I want to a have a personality that causes people (especially girls) to feel loved, safe, comfortable, and so, so happy.
However, I will never be able to become the person I want to be due to numerous physical and psychological disorders, and a disturbing past. I'd rather die than live a life of shame, pity, disappointment, uselessness, isolation, and negativity.