Painless Suicide Methods – Pain Free Death

Most people find SF when the pain is so bad that they can’t take it any more. That is how I found SF. If you are here, reading this, the chances are you are so tired of hurting, so exhausted by the relentless black hole of pain inside you that you are looking for a way, ANY way, to make it stop. Painless suicide methods seem like the holy grail right now. I get it – believe me – I understand.

Are There Any Painless Suicide Methods?

The simple answer is no. I understand that your instinct now is to click off this page and keep looking, but STOP. Wait. Just stay a few minutes. The problem with suicide methods is that 97% of the time, they fail. And that is just the completely committed “I want to die right now this second” group. Suicide is painful and messy and horrifying – and I completely understand if you are sitting here thinking “yes, well so is my life” – I have been there.

One of the most common things our members say when they first join SF is ‘I am too much of a coward to go through with it”. Not killing yourself isn’t cowardly. Not killing yourself isn’t weak or spineless. It is okay to scream for help at the top of your lungs right now – you deserve help and nobody can do this alone.

Cowardly Suicide

We have thousands and thousands of members and each and every one of them knows what it feels like to want to fall asleep and never wake up. To stop the pain – for it to be easy and peaceful and painless. Suicide isn’t any of those things. It is painful and lonely and scary and 97% of the time it fails. For people under 40, that number goes up to 99.5% of the time. The thoughts and feelings you are dealing with are not shameful or weak or wrong – but really wanting to die and really wanting to make the pain stop are not the same thing. 

What About Pain Free Death?

It is easy to believe – especially right now – that it wouldn’t matter if you died. Nobody would care. I don’t know you and I don’t know what is going on in your life (I would like to) but I have been suicidal and believed those things, and I have talked to hundreds and hundreds of people who also believe those things. Pain lies. Depression lies. Most of all, despair lies. The idea that your death would not matter and it wouldn’t hurt anyone – that your suicide would be pain free for all concerned – it isn’t true. Maybe you want to believe it is true because you don’t want to hurt any of the people you love. Maybe you hurt so badly you can’t see past the pain to the truth. But you are wrong. There are no ‘pain free’ ways to die. There are especially no pain free ways to kill yourself. Not just the physical messy agony of suicide itself, which is never like it is in the movies or on tumblr, but also the emotional pain you are passing to the people who are about you and even the people who ‘only’ know you.

The pain can go away. I know you don’t believe me; I didn’t believe it either. I was sure – 100% definite – that life would never get better, that the pain would never go away, that I would never feel okay again, let alone happy. I felt alone and isolated and like there was nobody to talk to who could possibly understand. I was wrong. About all of it. There are people who understand and who will support you and while right now you don’t think support can help and you don’t see how talking can make a difference, there is something about NOT feeling alone and isolated that eases the pain just enough to be able to breathe for a minute. To be able to think. To give yourself a chance.

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You Need to Talk to Someone

There is no replacement for professional medical treatment. If you are suicidal you need real medical help – but you also need to talk to people you can be honest with, people you can say out loud “I hurt so much I want to die” to. It is hard, almost impossible, to say those things to people who know and care about you in real life. They get scared and hurt and suddenly you are not only dealing with your own pain, you are dealing with theirs as well. For people who already have more pain than they can bear, that is not an option.

Talking doesn’t magically make the pain go away. I am not going to sit here and lie to you that it might. I understand that it is hard to see the point – the POINT is that you want to make the pain stop and if talking won’t do that then it can feel like a waste of the precious little energy you have left. What talking does – in a peer to peer setting – is make you feel less alone. Knowing that people understand and care, that even strangers who are in pain themselves care about you enough to listen and support you, can make you feel less isolated, remind you that you do not have to deal with this alone. 

Talk to us. Write down how you feel. Engage with people who understand – as much as anyone can understand – how you feel. The pain won’t go away overnight but it CAN go away and you deserve to have support while you deal with it. So instead of clicking off here and going back to Google in search of ways to die, stick around here. Join our community and find ways to make the pain go away that don’t involve killing yourself – ways to make the pain go away that give you your life back. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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  • hey guys my life is black darkness and i read all post and it make me think only many thougts and my childen are not siblings and life had ben fine to me but i ate many chips and now 6 years late i have tried kill myself and also my childen i dont think ican make this work 🙁

  • I’m 20 , single , I’ve been having a shitty life for since i was 10 and its gotten worse day after day . i had a major failure in a pretty serious relationship and moved on after 6 month , been doing drugs and a alcohol. having shitty life , family , a lot of economic problems , some failed turning points has driven me to a point that forces me to want to stop it all , maybe others say that, its not kind of a big deal and many people have the same issues , but the fact is , i cant take it anymore , i’m simply alone , cant talk to anyone about my messed up life , and the things that can save me from my misery and gloomy life , are so beyond my reach , i don’t know how to do it , i value life a lot , but if i’m living , i want to live like an average human , average 20y old boy , but i just cant help it , its been a a long time since i last had a normal , sleep , i cant even sleep well , im simply breaking down . im not sure if ive got what it takes to end my life , but im srsly considering it as a way to break out of this living nightmare.

  • I’m 18 years old and I already feel like I have hurt more people than I can imagine. I don’t find life as something I can deal with anymore, I don’t like the way I live and I think so little of myself. I had beautiful dreams and everything changed in a second almost a year ago. I cry alone in my room every night, I don’t sleep and I can’t talk to anyone about this. My mom would freak out and I’m not sure I have friends. I tried to kill myself because I don’t see how this can go away. I saw a psychologist for some time and, well, as you can see, nothing changed. I don’t know what to do. I’m just not sure I wanna live

  • I failed as a doctor. I couldn’t live up to my potential . I cannot study further. Scared I might harm someone I quit medicine. Spent nearly all of my parents money. Single, broke, frustrated with no direction in life. Hiding away and hoping it comes to an end.

  • I’ve had huge problems with depression since I was 8. No one in my family beleived i had a problem, and i got in trouble alot because i couldn’t handle the most basic tasks in life. It took a long time for them to accept I have problems. I’ve reached out for help many times and the medical community fails, not for lack of trying, to help. I’ve even had one doctor that made the problem so much worse.

    So now i’m 32, i live with my mom, well for a few more days until i’m homeless, can’t work, have no money, no friends, no future. Hence why i’m searching how to kill myself.

  • am feeling the world is against me,am 20 years old and I did an arbortion and ever since then my life has been ups and down.
    Am failing at school and I was excluded,that time I was suppose to appeal but something made me forget to appeal against my exclusion.
    Now am sitting thinking of dying cause nothing is going right in my life.
    My fear is how am I even gonna go back home and tell them that I failed in varsity.Dying is the only option I have.
    I have failed myself and my family cause now I have a baby and am don”t have a future

  • I am feeling lost, empty. I don’t remember how many times I wish I could end my miserable life. I worry about everything, especially recently, I have left my job and broke up with my boy friend since I want to find a way out, but now, things seem even worse. I am living a life without any motivation, I find my existence just meaningless, not worth-living. I can’t remember when is the last time a feel truly happy about something in my life. I don’t want to living in such endless circle of pain. I am scared.

  • I’m a total disappointment and a failure to my family, my Brother has a good education and is ‘The Good One’ and I’m the youngest, failure that cant do anything right, except maybe kill myself

  • I am 33, i have a child who is just 5 years. I have been jobless for over 4 months. My wife taunts me everyday, telling me that I am a loser. There are a lot of expenses. She is earning well, however, she has unnecessary expenses, which is not called for. Sometimes she threatens me, to leave with my child. I dont know what to do. My luck has just ran out. Its just a matter of time.

  • Hey. I read this article the yesterday when I was planning to just end it all. After reading this, I realized that maybe, just maybe, someone would care. I have my parents, a few close friends, my readers (I write online) who might care, even a bit. So, i delayed the thought. Yet, the thoughts are back again, haunting me with all their will. I just… can’t continue. What should I do? People have told me to try to have a positive outlook on things, but in this frame of mind, it is next to impossible.

  • Yesterday was my birthday. I thought I would get rid of this suicidal thought which I was having since when I was a kid. But here I am still having the thought of ending my life. I’m tired of this life. Nothing goes well in my life. I am such a loser. My family will be sad if this happened but they will move on, I suppose.

  • My life is a mess. I am a mess. I have never accomplished one thing in my life. I have a beautiful, incredibly intelligent 5 year old, his sperm donor is in prison for rape and murder. I have a beautiful daughter, who is so creative and imaginative and her father is a drug addict who only cares about himself. I cannot give them the life they deserve. I cannot maintain a job for longer than 6 months because I crumble under stress. I have multiple evictions because of this so I cannot even give them a place to live on my own. My children are being ruined everyday because the only role model they have is me and I am a failure. I have a mother that loves when I fail because it makes her feel better about herself. I have zero friends because all of my friends went on to have productive lives and I self sabotage every chance I get. I feel guilty every second of every day because my children deserve so much more. My son teaches himself amazing things everyday, he loves to learn, he has taught himself about every country in the world, about organs and how they work and he loves space. i fear he will never get an opportunity to do anything with his life because of me. I can’t provide them with even the basic of things they need to survive. I just want to call cps and ask them to find them a good home and die. My son loves me more than I can explain and I don’t deserve it. He tells me how much of a good mother I am and he kisses me while I am still sleeping when he wakes up in the morning and tells me he loves me and it makes me feel so guilty. I am robbing my children of good opportunities because of my own mental health problems. My daughter is 3 years old and she is so funny and adorable, she loves life and loves everything about it and I wish I could feel the same way. I want to enjoy them, but all I feel is guilt. My boyfriend which is my daughter’s dad ignores us all day, he plays is guitar and get high and sucks up all our resources, we have next to nothing and he couldn’t care any less. It makes me so angry that I act crazy. I want to leave and I want to start over. I could never get a place in my name, I have not one person in the world that could watch my kids while I work. I feel so stuck that I can’t even breathe. And at the same time I feel stupid for even typing this because there are so many people with so much less and so much worse. I can’t even feel sorry for myself properly.

  • I’m 18 years old, you’re probably thinking im too young for this thread but I guess the pain doesnt discriminate age, I might have posted two comments due to I cant see my comment being posted so I apologise if I have, my girlfriend of a few years left and I thought I was okay and I didn’t cry or anything I kept it locked away, forever, never to tell anyone, I’ve seen her a few times since then and each time I cried my eyes out, I don’t know why I could never explain to her why, so I messaged her trying to apologise for everything to clear my guilt that I feel day in day out. I feel such pain everyday, it starts of emotional but eventually it leads to me physically in pain all over, I feel numb, the pain and guilt is too much to bare day in day out, so I’ve tried to kill myself multiple times, and I’ve hid the signs from my family and friends, because if I told them they’d look at me differently; I make them all laugh, thats what I do. If I tell them all this they will just worry about me wont they? Everytime I tried to kill myself theres something that just stops me, fuck, I don’t even have the guts to end it all, im such a coward. I’m glad I found all you lot, you all deserve so much happiness, because its the ones that go through all this pain that are the real soldiers, those in hidden capes, those who feel this endless void. Thank you all truly

  • I am 16 and I know I am very young but I have been feeling suicidal for over two years … I have been depressed down and I’ve tried to come up in so many ways…lately before my results came out I was depressed even more than I could bare I had anxiety and I’ve been really good at hiding it but now it is finding its way to the surface…my life is good more than I can wish for but my mental health I below zero. it is worse that I’ve ever felt my whole life. I know if I kill myself life would be so much better for my loved ones as they would stop spending a whole load of money on some one as useless as me…in my life I’ve been trying so hard .. at my studies and all but I never get anywhere. I kept failing and failing and I am tired of letting people down. let alone letting myself down. I am honestly tired of life and I want to die…and thats all there is to it…I have been building myself up stronger and better and so anythings have been tearing down my walls. and now I’m done building. I want to sleep … forever…..some day I might be able to look back not this comment ……or maybe…I won’t be here to see it……

  • I want to die cause I am a waste of space but I love a few people in my live and I would never want to hurt them but it would be better for them if I go

  • I honestly dont care about my life i was raped by my family member i was very close too and ever since i went back to school it has been very hard on my and i dont care but i try to make the best of it and i cant im ready to take my own life. i know its bad to say this but i need real support form people who understand me.

  • I have had problems with low self esteem and suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember. This site has really helped and hurt my heart. I never knew so many suffered with these thoughts. I am not alone that is for sure and I so wish that wasn’t true because it is truly a terrible pain. If anyone would like to talk to someone I am here to listen but not to give advice as I have the same problems and working through them one day at a time.

  • I want to die. I seriously don’t know how to keep living. I’ve made so many mistakes and hurt so many people with my depression I don’t know how to deal with it. I want to fucking die and end it all

  • There is no point in talking to anyone. I have tried and I am just not important and peoples ACTIONS prove this statement. I don’t want this life and to always feel so worthless by people who claim to love me the most is solid proof. Everytime I express my thoughts and how I feel they are disregarded like the worthless person I am. I have tried to convince myself that everything will be fine and I just need to keep telling myself I am a good person and I do try very hard but actions of the people that ‘love’ you proves that what you think about yourself is completely justified and every one of those people will be happy if you were gone. I have been fighting depression for years and guess what NOT ONE PERSON CARES – this is a fact. People will want to help but only enough to make themselves feel good. No one cares and this is a fact of the world we live in.

  • I’m 30 years old and have almost lost all will to live. My life is not what I thought it would be seven years ago. I had dreamed that I would have a family of my own, a good job to support them with, kids even, but none of that has come to fruition. I’m so much of loser that I can’t even afford to move out of my parents’ house. I made a poor choice in my pursuit of a degree and I can’t find solid work with it. I have failed and disappointed everyone around me. I’m a burden and a waste of space and don’t see that changing. Even my efforts to change things don’t go anywhere. I don’t see any reason to go on living.

  • Nice article. But, I still want to go to sleep and never wake up. I feel very alone even though I am married and have a son. I wish I could be a better person. I feel so drained.

  • I am 23 gonna have my 24 birthday in 2 months. I have graduated from college for half a year now and trying to find a job with depression and anxiety is so hard. No employer wants someone who has little energy, easily stressed and anxious around people. I was actually going into the helping profession but it felt like my depression is making it impossible for me to get a job in this field. How can I help people when I can barely help myself? Also, my relationship with my bf is falling apart after me realising that to him a lot of other things are more important than me. I felt hurt and cheat, not valued. And after my dad raped me I felt like I have lost the dad that I once loved so deeply…Reading all your commemts makes me feel like that I am not alone in this, and I can totally relate to you…it is very hard…we are in this together and I have not given up yet and i want to let all you know that I care about you and I want you all to feel better

  • I’m not worth it. My story is on another website for life recovery and help, and that website and everyone there, all supportive and against suicide, just told me the same discouraging things. My life is so bad, there is no hope for me. Everyone just says theyre sorry, and then they all just stop talking.

    Im so suicidal, Im unable to find a person to relate too. I thought I had the affection of a lovely woman, whom did things no one else did, but she doesnt want to be close, despite her saying Im well worth it and her having the same feelings. Im just not worthy, Im not an equal, Im not worth the effort, my life doesnt matter and that cuts deep, when you have someone you feel that could save your life and is worth living for, just tell you they “cant” and “Im sorry” and leave you to die.

    I dont know what to do. No one honestly likes me, the support group on the other websites both gave up on me. I feel there is just no hope. No love. Nothing.

  • im 27 , graduated in 2014 and still have no job. I am talented and a very good writer but no one sees that unless you sleep with them to get a job you know you are good at.

    I was raped at 15 and I got raped again this year . tell me why I should live. all I am saying is this is my first and last post . there is no way surviving jumping in front of a train.

    im not encouraging any1 to kill themselves but this is the end for me and I wish all of you nothing but to find happiness someday.

  • will kill myself probably because my mom doesn’t like me and my dad doesn’t like me either so I’m a shame for my family and have no friends. everything i do is wrong, i try every day but everything gets wrong. I’m just digging further and further down the big pit. and soon I can no longer cope

  • I’m 41. Divorced for years. During the work week, I’ll not speak to anyone except my 5 coworkers. I take my medication because I’m told to. I work out daily because I’m told to. I make sure I get enough sleep because I’m told to. I speak with a therapist because I’m told to. I do everything I’m told to do. But the effort of life just isn’t worth the very meager reward. I’m just waiting until my parents pass away. I can do that much for them. After that, I have no reason to stick around.

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