I want to be gone

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I am getting to the point once again where I am planning my suicide and thinking it would be a good answer to my problems. The longer I live, the worse things get, and I can't take this pain anymore. There is no place in this world for me, and maybe I should just see my way out of it.

 

[Inanimate]

I'm not exactly sure what's wrong, and you may or may not be sick of explaining, but I would rather you not commit suicide. I know... I sound SO sincere. Really though, please... keep talking if it helps.

 

[ThePhantomLady]

s*

Please don't give up hun! Please?
Do you have a therapist you can talk to about what is going on in your head? Please don't just give up like that. You're such a lovely person and you deserve to live, and you deserve to live a happy life!

You can always write to me hun!

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I'm just sick of being hurt when I treat people well. I am tired of being unimportant and somehow less than others. I just feel like I don't deserve to be alive.

 

[ThePhantomLady]

You are important!!

And you DO deserve to be alive, everyone does, and you're such a good person!

Other's lashing out doesn't determine anything about you. You did a good thing. Remember that!

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I'm just tired of being made to feel ugly, or stupid, or worthless, or anything bad at all. It makes me feel like it's not worth it. I don't know if I can be bothered to keep going.

 

[ThePhantomLady]

Who is making you feel that way?? It's not true hun!

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Various people throughout my life, and I still deal with it. I'm starting to think I am all the bad things people say, or else they wouldn't say them.

 

[ThePhantomLady]

You are not, I promise you!

People often adapt the 'voices' of what we hear growing up... that doesn't make it true hun.

Please talk to someone about this. You deserve better hun!

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I feel like I will never have a chance to get what I want out of life. Even the simplest things seem unattainable and I am just scared to see what the future holds.

 

[Petal]

I feel like I will never have a chance to get what I want out of life. Even the simplest things seem unattainable and I am just scared to see what the future holds.

What is it that you want out of life hun? I think you are a lovely person and I am sorry I did not see this thread until now, I hope today is treating you kinder! You are important, say that to yourself in front of the mirror and after a while you will realise that it is true!! **big comforting hugs** be safe darling!

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I just want to be happy. I don't want to feel scared of everything anymore. I want to live a normal life, but I worry that I will never be able to.

 

[Petal]

I just want to be happy. I don't want to feel scared of everything anymore. I want to live a normal life, but I worry that I will never be able to.

I feel the same sometimes too but it can change for you hun, you're a tough and smart cookie, you can get through this s*

 

[SoDone416]

I'm just tired of being made to feel ugly, or stupid, or worthless, or anything bad at all. It makes me feel like it's not worth it. I don't know if I can be bothered to keep going.

I feel exactly the way you do. It's so hard to keep going when you feel like everyone is pushing you back. I'm trying my best though. Trying to focus on my two kids...essentially the only 2 things holding me to this world.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I feel exactly the way you do. It's so hard to keep going when you feel like everyone is pushing you back. I'm trying my best though. Trying to focus on my two kids...essentially the only 2 things holding me to this world.

I am sorry to hear you are treated that way. Some people can really be hurtful. I am glad you have your kids and I am sure they brighten your days I feel the same about my nephew and he is a big reason I am still here.

 

[Petal]

my nephew and he is a big reason I am still here

My niece is a huge reason I lasted this long too. Are you feeling any better today sweetie? we're here for you

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

My niece is a huge reason I lasted this long too. Are you feeling any better today sweetie? we're here for you

Yeah, nieces and nephews are great. They just make life better

I am doing ok, thanks for asking. Hope you are too hun

 

[LookWithin]

I just want to be happy. I don't want to feel scared of everything anymore. I want to live a normal life, but I worry that I will never be able to.

Yeah, nieces and nephews are great. They just make life better

I am doing ok, thanks for asking. Hope you are too hun

"I just want to be happy."

Haven't you just hit on the most basic desire every human being has? I was just telling myself this a few days ago after battling with some very low feelings. I just want to be happy. Isn't it curious this is what everyone wants, and they don't really know why?

What would make you happy?

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

To have someone who would care about me no matter what, and never judge me unfairly or leave me. For the things I have always wanted to come true to really happen. I think that would make me happy.

 

[LookWithin]

I think you just described what everyone wants!

What I've noticed is I'm most miserable when I want to get love. I feel the best when I am loving. Have you noticed that?