Ugh. Hate what I am remembering right now. Mom hitting herself and calling herself stupid. Daring me to agree. Feeling responsible for it....
My entire life can be summed up as a series of miseries with occasional short breaks never lasting more than a few months. -Born -Big brother...
I cannot stand the little girl in me telling me it was my fault. I just cannot live with the guilt of being responsible.
Why did my brain choose March to suddenly start remember all this stuff that happened years ago. Why now? Why did memories have to come back...
I just found out that my dad's uncle passed away. My parents want me to come home for a few days for the funeral. I do not know if I am ready to...
I cannot deal with stuff. I don't want things to be true, yet I know they are. I can't stand being here while knowing that stuff happened.
Why do they keep coming back. I do not want to remember more. I hate the sensation of wanting to flee yet being frozen at the same time. They...
started depersonalizing so i wrote some poetry. take me to the riverwalk (i swear nothing has changed) take me to the riverwalk (i swear its all...
I want the pain to stop. It hurts so much. I want the memories to stop. I don't want to keep remembering the insults said at me and being...
Sometimes I feel like I will feel the effects of the rape and sexual abuse forever. It has definitely changed me as a person and the way I see...
Yesterday I did one of the hardest things I ever had to do. I finally opened up to my parents about the sexual molestation I suffered at the hands...
So I told my mom that I had been feeling anxious this past year and had talked to a doctor. Then I told her that I went to a school counsellor...
I went in total isolation once I found out that my ex boyfriend was a Sociopath. I feel like I want to throw up, I feel sick to my stomach. I've...
****Triggering warning**** This will probably be my last post for awhile. I have severe depression and suffer with PTSD and low self esteem due...
lately even getting out of bed feels like a chore to me. i am tired of dealing with abuse memories and anxiety. i want to die, but at the same...
I'm suffering from depression, PTSD, low self esteem and my therapist said I have some aspects of borderline. I told her how I don't push people...
some prose/poetry i wrote on dealing with flashbacks from abuse All I can hear is the click of the keyboard, the buzz of my phone, the sound of...
