death

I’ve been depressed for nearly 2 years straight. Not some small “nothing feels ok” depression but a life sucking “everything is a void and no matter what I or anybody else does will make it ok” depression. I’m not functioning. I’m not able to bathe myself, clean, enjoy life… nothing. It’s all...

Back in 2010 I really started to fall apart with depression for the first time, killing myself was all I could think about, and for reasons I wont go into (the reasons aren't the point) I eventually decided that no matter what, I wouldn't kill myself, I took suicide off the table as an option. I...

I used to get nightmares a lot, some pretty nasty ones, and some creatively nasty ones, eventually those nightmares stopped even being scary or disturbing, just tiring, but for a few years now, I cant really recall having any dreams, not ones I remember anyway, until last night, I had what could...

My grandma is getting heart surgery, and her health is just getting worse, and I know she won't live forever but whenever I think about her passing, all I can think about is how much happier I'll be if I just kill myself and follow her. I didn't have a dad, so she is basically my second parent...

I don't really believe in a specific religion or really even believe in God. I do believe in demons/ghosts/whatever they are from my own experiences though. I don't know if they are just a different species but sometimes I worry that they're the energy of a person who has passed. And that makes...

Where do i start? well first off i hate my life and myself i was never meant for this world my birth was an accident. I have been let down hard by the system and people in general as well way too many times and i feel i am not compatible with society due to all the pressure stress and trauma...

My parents think that I am getting better, nearing the end of depression, but little do they know how I am still suicidal. I can't tell them because they'll be hurt yet again and the entire cycle of guilt would be repeated. Meds are working, undoubtedly, but now that my self-written book is...

Today is Mother's Day... and I am just here, making my mother and everyone else sad. I don't see what's the point of living. I have no future ahead of me. I couldn't love anyone and I wasn't loved by anyone (nor I will ever love/be loved). My life is meaningless and there is no point to it...

I don't feel like suicide is an option. I feel as if it is an obligation of some kind. It became incredibly hard for me to believe that getting better is necessary; I really trust that death is the way - the one and only way. Five years ago I planned carefully my depart, but I believed I had...

I have done so many unforgivable things in my past to people that I loved. they hurt just so I could relieve some stress. They let me put them down so that I could feel good. They let me hurt them so that I could feel okay. But i didn't realize that these things weren't okay!! I thought I was...

So from around the age of 4 I grew up without my father around, and when I was 13 I sadly got told my father had passed away. This really hit me as from a young age I used to sit and pray to god that I hoped he’d come and visit me someday. So when I found out this news it crushed me as I knew...

Feel free to ignore this. I just HAVE to vent before my mind blows... I understand no one can give advice on that and I am sorry haha I just needed to pour it all out of my chest... __________ It can only get harder. It is downhill from now on. I gave up on all of my college duties. And I am...

I know last year I came here to talk just a few times. It was a good year, but still, a few bad things happened... All my family is in grief now, as my grandmother passed away on october. I didn't know her, when I was born, she was already mentally sick. She hated me to her last breath, as my...

Why do deaths always seem to come in threes. It all started with the death of my Grandma I miss her so much. Next was my she suffered so much my mom's only sibling its all been so sad and now today my Grandmas older sister died at the age of 89. Deaths come in threes so now I can hope my family...

My both grandfathers have been long dead before I was born. I’ve never met them. There was, instead, my mother’s uncle. He was married with my mom’s mother. He has been like a grandfather to me ever since then. Me and my siblings spent so much time with him and my grandmother in my childhood...

For whatever reason sometimes it feels nice to share thoughts with strangers so I felt like sharing... Here's something I just wrote out: People are quick to let you know, they know how you feel But they don't Do you know how it feels to live the worst day of your life over and over? Do you...

Hi guys. This is my first thread and post on this site. I hope you guys can help me. I don't want to run away from my problems anymore or let my mind go to that scary place where some sick voice starts convincing me that suicide is an answer. I want to reach out. When I was 11 years old, I came...

Let me begin by saying this; For whatever fucked up reason, my mind just cannot accept that being a virgin at 20 years old is normal. Now, typically I hide my loneliness, depression, poverty, social anxiety, concern about my lack of sexual activity (I even lie to my doctor), the list goes on...

I've never said this before, "I want to be dead". Usually, I'll have suicidal thoughts and feelings, and know that they scare me and know that I'm too cowardly to take my own life. I've come to terms with death now though, and with killing myself. I can't live through this emotional pain any...

https://www.ted.com/talks/andrew_solomon_depression_the_secret_we_share?language=en This man experienced severe depression but fought his way out This is his story.