depressed

  1. zuicidalgoth

    tired of trying and confused.

    so when i first came to this site i was excited to be around these amazingly strong and brave people. so this site means everything to me. i have severe ocd so ocd tends to trigger on things that you care and cherish. becuz of that im scared shitless that i would post something inappropriate or...
  2. Beka

    Anyone else?

    So I find this hard to explain but, (I assume) due to my BPD, I find that I'm very in tune to others feelings. Particularly those close to me such as family. But I can't control it. It's like empathy where I can for some reason pretty much always relate to/feel how the person is feeling but I...
  3. J

    Birthdays, Depression and Suicide - How to cope up?

    Does anyone feel anxious, more depressed, and tired in general during the upcoming days of their birthday? My birthday is coming up in a couple days and I have no idea how to cope with it. I have this crippling fear in my heart regarding my future and I just can't bear to be present on my...
  4. sisyphus

    Random Venting

    Feel free to ignore this. I just HAVE to vent before my mind blows... I understand no one can give advice on that and I am sorry haha I just needed to pour it all out of my chest... __________ It can only get harder. It is downhill from now on. I gave up on all of my college duties. And I am...
  5. sisyphus

    Dealing with Depression

    I was recovering but I noticed that 2017 has been a whole down year. I went spiraling back again to my worst of moments and lately it has reached again the peak that leads to the end. But the end is now a problem that it wasn't before: I used to be alone, but while I was recovering, I had to...
  6. IFeelLikeAnAlien95

    Feeling like I don't exist

    3 weeks ago I fell down some stairs and i broke my 5th metatarsal. It has left me unable to work and house-bound. Lately I've felt really isolate and worthless. It's like I don't exist anymore. Since I'm on crutches its hard to get out or do much and i feel like a pest if i go out because its a...
  7. A

    am

    I am struggling bad with the holidays. It just reminds me that I am rejected by family and do not have my own family. I can take food and go and give it to people at a community dinner. But I can barely stand the holiday and I think I have damage from being bullied all those years. I go through...
  8. lightning05

    Overwhelmed

    I feel constantly sad or angry or somewhere in between the two. I don't know why I feel so shitty. I'm crying as I write this now. I'm frustrated as hell with work and just where I am in life right now. Work sucks, I'm only staying with this job to get the licenses I went to school for. So I...
  9. Miss Invisible

    Who Am I

    Summer is ending:( Booo. Along with it the relaxation of; let's face it laziness;). If you've read my story you know that I have had two extensive domestic abuse ex-relationships . One that blessed me with two sons, now 21 and 18. The other with a wonderous blessing of my only beautiful...
  10. Liwu

    I want to end up as corpse

    Hello forum members, in the last time I'm really often depressed and in bad mood. I've less money, no friends, no graduation... And 2 days ago I was robbed at the train station and I lost my pocket including important things like Perso, Credit Card, Money etc. I hate myself, I've stuck of...
  11. MommyOf1

    I've also had a strained relationship with Mother

    My Mother and I are both very strong minded individuals. My Mother is a control freak, she always has been and always will be. She can be vindictive and down right nasty at times but she's my Mother and I do love her. When I found out that I was pregnant with my daughter, my Mother was very...
  12. Riuna

    Im super tired with univ life

    Im on my last semester, and im always on my last semester. what remains to finish is a recital and my thesis. I feel so tired doing things I dont like, which is my music composition the recital. It is just a music composition is something that has to be honest from the person itself, but my...
  13. Gray Hudson

    How should I deal with this issue ?

    I expect myself to do some simple things a day, everyday, but I don't ever do them. When I attempt to I just can't. An example of this is to read some books, but if I continue to read then i'll start feeling depressed and want to do other things... when I want to do other things I get...
  14. lightning05

    Trapped in an Endless Cycle

    I'm so unhappy. Over the past few months I have been juggling school with weekly exams and assignments, a full time job, and an internship. In another month I have to take national board exams to get licensed in my career. I have been trying to stay off of SH for a while to see where I was...
  15. Rockclimbinggirl

    Feeling more depressed lately

    I have been struggling with feeling more depressed lately. Just want to stay in bed and be asleep all day. Just haven't been feeling that motivated lately. I also came close to "method" on Monday. I really don't know why I've been feeling like this lately. Just don't care about life as...
  16. lightning05

    Zombie

    Every day this week I have been on auto pilot. This morning I am going to be late for work because I couldn't bring myself to get up. I feel like a zombie that is dead inside and I really wish something would happen that would cause my life to end. I am extremely lonely and sad. I don't even...
  17. lightning05

    Too Lonely

    Lately I have been feeling this overwhelming lonliness. I could be in a room full of people and still feel lonely. I've cried about it so much today, even crying at work in the bathroom stall so no one would see. I feel like this lonliness is eating me from the inside out and it hurts so badly...
  18. lightning05

    So sad it hurts

    I've been gone for a while, mostly because work has been crazy and I have a summer class that is killing my free time but also because I was away this past week and a half with two friends on a trip. My trip was wonderful and it was fun to be with my friends like that but I notice that no matter...
  19. eleanorhikari

    Can't say anything

    I'm living in Japan at the moment. I tried to commit suicide in late February <mod edit> Obviously, I failed. I'm 21 and a student and live alone. But I haven't talked about it to anyone. I told people not to visit me in hospital, or if they did come I told them I was in there for a different...
  20. Ive

    Is it okay?

    Is it okay to wanting to sleep forever? Is it selfish? Is it okay to leave everything in this life just like this? Is it okay to left my parents and siblings like this? Will my family and my best friends disappointed and sad when they find me asleep later? I kept asking myself that whenever i...
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