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  1. FiveAs_

    "Love yourself"

    "You look beautiful" means nothing unless you believe it So stop telling me that tight black dress looks good on me because honestly I feel disgusting in it And it's too tight around my belly to the point where it makes me want to puke everything I ever ate And stop telling me "love yourself"...
  2. CBunny9

    Got sent home from work yesterday

    My boss noticed I wasn’t quite myself and brought me into her office. She’s super sweet and kind and lovely and she made sure I understood this was not boss-to-employee, but rather human-to-human, and asked if I was okay. I basically had a total breakdown in her office and told her how I’ve been...
  3. CBunny9

    Is pushing people away basically a fight or flight response?

    Like I noticed today I was in a great mood and decided I wanted to visit my bf at work. I’ve been in a funk the past few days and haven’t wanted to be around anyone, even him. But I figured since I was feeling a bit better I would visit. As soon as I was with him I felt all my walls go up. I...
  4. W

    Medication

    I've been prescribed Prozacs 20mg pill and I dunno how to explain this exactly. Today was the 3rd day on the meds and uhh.. I have this intense urge to take more than the allowed dosage. I can't explain it. It came out of nowhere. Did anyone else have this issue or am I just crazy ? lol
  5. NRW24

    Empathy Only I have nothing to give

    I have nothing to give. My love is worthless. I have no future. No wonder no one loves me. I have nothing to offer as a human being. I failed at being a human. My existence is a mistake. I need to end it.
  6. adeadhikikomori

    I hate my life and myself

    Where do i start? well first off i hate my life and myself i was never meant for this world my birth was an accident. I have been let down hard by the system and people in general as well way too many times and i feel i am not compatible with society due to all the pressure stress and trauma...
  7. MeowingMeower

    I have gender dysphoria

    Hi. I'm born male and I have gender dysphoria, and I'm struggling alot to cope with daily life. For those of you who don't know what that means, gender dysphoria is the condition that trans people have. I'm not trans though, cuz I'm pre transition. I have talked to psychologists and such about...
  8. jckl.nthbutu1104

    I 've broken most of my relationships

    I understand that there's no way to go back to the past. But I am deeply ashamed of my foolish behaviors when my depression ruined my mind. At the end of my last few school year, I've lost my control and treated others in a very arrogant and not nice way. When I pretended to be so selfish that I...
  9. Freyja

    "Where do you see yourself in 5 years?" Help with interviews.

    Hello everyone. Not sure if I should post this here or in the « I have a question » section. I’ve been having a lot of dilemmas recently and I may go job hunting again later this year. Like most people, I assume, I hate interviews, and I hate even more the fact that in my field it takes between...
  10. adeadhikikomori

    Hikikomori Japan's bedroom shut-ins

    I am curious as to what other users on this forum think about the hikikomori phenomenon in Japan? For those who don't know hikikomori is a social condition caused by a group of symptoms that result in the affected individual withdrawing from society and living in isolation in their...
  11. adeadhikikomori

    I Need To Vent

    Hello this is only my second thread on this site and i feel like i need to vent this is probably the most appropriate place to do so so i decided to make a thread here. Anyway i want to start off by saying that i hate the western Neet and Hikikomori communities that exist on the internet why...
  12. adeadhikikomori

    Hello

    Hello i'm new here and i am a bit scared to post here but here it goes i am 25 years old and have been living as a hikikomori for about 2 years now for those who don't know hikikomori is a social condition in which the affected individual isolates themselves from society at home in their room...
  13. CoffeeArtist

    I'm not getting better

    My parents think that I am getting better, nearing the end of depression, but little do they know how I am still suicidal. I can't tell them because they'll be hurt yet again and the entire cycle of guilt would be repeated. Meds are working, undoubtedly, but now that my self-written book is...
  14. Freyja

    Pretending

    I wanted to post "how I feel today" but it got a little longer than usual and actually reflects how I feel every day despite everything I write daily in that thread. Sad, alone, scared, lost, empty ... I just don't see how it can ever get better. It can only get worse. I feel like I'm hanging on...
  15. Hendrica

    55 years old, unable to work

    I am struggling because of major depressive disorder, anxiety, hypomania, chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. I dread every day and cannot find purpose. I feel tremendous guilt and worthlessness because I am not working and on disability. I have five more years until I can get on full...
  16. Z

    No friends, no love, no hope

    No friends. That's right, none. I am not joking or exaggerating in the least bit when I say this. People don't dare to be around me. All throughout middle and high school, everyone on campus has always put in their best effort to stay away from me. I've also never had a GF. All around me, I seem...
  17. faeful

    I tried my very best

    I always do try to contain such negative feelings within. I wasn't even in the site for awhile. I tried to do what I loved again and for some time, I actually felt a little alive. But like always, there has to be a price for that quick happiness. Now I'm back to square one again. Thinking about...
  18. rebeccaspins

    I wish I lived alone

    I feel so trapped and hopeless. I've been this way for years. I'm stuck living with my mum and her aggressive partner and it's killing me inside. He has extreme anger issues just like my father. I feel like a naughty child when in fact I'm a 24-year-old woman with a Masters degree from a great...
  19. NRW24

    I don't want to live

    I am a failure and a disappointment, I am just living here to waste my family's resources. I likely will never find a job. Nor I will ever love someone or be loved by someone. My parents hate me and I hate myself. I don't see why I should continue. I'll never be happy. I'll never make another...
  20. GoliathQueen

    Taking care of my sick mom

    This is pretty long so brace yourselves... My mother has chronic glomerulitis and has been undergoing hemodialysis for 8 years now. I just recently graduated last June and had all kinds of plans for myself. Then, my mother's condition started to worsen and we found out that she has sepsis due to...
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