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depression

  1. CoffeeArtist

    I'm not getting better

    My parents think that I am getting better, nearing the end of depression, but little do they know how I am still suicidal. I can't tell them because they'll be hurt yet again and the entire cycle of guilt would be repeated. Meds are working, undoubtedly, but now that my self-written book is...
  2. Freyja

    Pretending

    I wanted to post "how I feel today" but it got a little longer than usual and actually reflects how I feel every day despite everything I write daily in that thread. Sad, alone, scared, lost, empty ... I just don't see how it can ever get better. It can only get worse. I feel like I'm hanging on...
  3. Hendrica

    55 years old, unable to work

    I am struggling because of major depressive disorder, anxiety, hypomania, chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. I dread every day and cannot find purpose. I feel tremendous guilt and worthlessness because I am not working and on disability. I have five more years until I can get on full...
  4. Z

    No friends, no love, no hope

    No friends. That's right, none. I am not joking or exaggerating in the least bit when I say this. People don't dare to be around me. All throughout middle and high school, everyone on campus has always put in their best effort to stay away from me. I've also never had a GF. All around me, I seem...
  5. faeful

    I tried my very best

    I always do try to contain such negative feelings within. I wasn't even in the site for awhile. I tried to do what I loved again and for some time, I actually felt a little alive. But like always, there has to be a price for that quick happiness. Now I'm back to square one again. Thinking about...
  6. rebeccaspins

    I wish I lived alone

    I feel so trapped and hopeless. I've been this way for years. I'm stuck living with my mum and her aggressive partner and it's killing me inside. He has extreme anger issues just like my father. I feel like a naughty child when in fact I'm a 24-year-old woman with a Masters degree from a great...
  7. NRW24

    I don't want to live

    I am a failure and a disappointment, I am just living here to waste my family's resources. I likely will never find a job. Nor I will ever love someone or be loved by someone. My parents hate me and I hate myself. I don't see why I should continue. I'll never be happy. I'll never make another...
  8. GoliathQueen

    Taking care of my sick mom

    This is pretty long so brace yourselves... My mother has chronic glomerulitis and has been undergoing hemodialysis for 8 years now. I just recently graduated last June and had all kinds of plans for myself. Then, my mother's condition started to worsen and we found out that she has sepsis due to...
  9. Crookshanks

    Why is my family so mean to me?

    I don't know why, but almost my whole family acts as if they hate me. My Mom constantly says she hates me, but treats me like a daughter the next day. It doesn't help that she drinks, which may be the main factor since she acts like herself when she is sober. But she has had her days when she...
  10. Depressed in SF

    Bipolar 2

    I've recently been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 disorder. For those who aren't aware of the differences between Bipolar 1 & 2, here's the wiki: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_II_disorder I'd previously been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder with acute...
  11. LelDaFish

    I stopped myself but I wish I didn’t

    I almost killed myself last year and I stopped myself last minute. I wish I would’ve pulled through and done it but at the same time I’m glad I didn’t. I love my family so much but I hate my life and the choices I’ve made. I would make another attempt but my family would mourn me and I’d never...
  12. Indigos

    It's all piling up and I can't dig my way out

    My grandmother had a stroke in February of this year. The day before that I found out my girlfriend had cheated on me and slept with someone. After we break up she starts dating a new guy and she doesn't know his last name. I constantly saw her in school with him, he was usually kissing her and...
  13. CBunny9

    My brain sometimes makes me feel like I don’t love my boyfriend

    i don’t really know how to explain this. I don’t really know where to start. I guess by saying that I know with 100% certainty that I am so so in love with my boyfriend and I know he loves me and I could gush about him forever. But when I’m feeling particularly depressed or dissociative all...
  14. heydear12

    I Need Help About Helping A Friend...

    Hello Guys I haven't been here for some time now, it is good to be back fortunately I am not here seeking help for myself, I have a friend who is in clinical depression and have a serious hearth disease. She had this disease for a long time and combined with depression it has become life...
  15. Kate123

    Should I tell my family?

    This might become a long rant but I feel like I need to put it down somwhere if only to sort out my thoughts yet again. A bit about me. I've been living with depression since I was about 16-17 years old. I'm 22 today. It's been some fiercely tough years but I believe I've tried my best at...
  16. LonelyHiker

    Depression, Illness, and Reckless Stupidity

    I'm not really sure how to post this. I guess I'll start by saying I made the monumentally stupid decision to drop my employer's health coverage last year. I was depressed (or more depressed than usual) about debt and household expenses, and in my depressed state, decided to drop coverage during...
  17. B

    Some advice please

    Hello, I'm hoping that someone could give me some advice please. I regularly chat via email to a young man in the USA, we met online over a year ago on another mental health forum when I was suffering quite badly from anxiety and he had his own mental health problems. We just support each other...
  18. S

    I just keep digging my grave

    I don't really know how to start. i don't even know if some of the things i want to say will break the rules on here. i don't even know if i belong on here. All i do know, i need for this pain to stop one way or the other. i have made three serious attempts on my life; once by <method edit > I...
  19. B

    Dealing with friend's depression and my anxiety

    I have anxiety since few years ago. I consulted to various counselors, though right now I'm not seeing any as I don't like my current counselor (I moved places that's why I have a new one). Aside from my counselors and few friends, not many people know I have anxiety since it's a bit difficult...
  20. Jack D

    "Emotional Blunting"?

    Wow, it really has been a while since I've made a contribution to SF. And during that time a lot of things have dramatically changed. However, some of it hasn't been for the better. As time has gone on, as I have made new friends (albeit online ones), and tried to become more social and in...
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