My both grandfathers have been long dead before I was born. I’ve never met them. There was, instead, my mother’s uncle. He was married with my mom’s mother. He has been like a grandfather to me ever since then.
Me and my siblings spent so much time with him and my grandmother in my childhood...
Why did my brain choose March to suddenly start remember all this stuff that happened years ago. Why now?
Why did memories have to come back and interrupt and mess up my life.
I want it to be what it was. I hate what it is now.
I want the pain to stop. It hurts so much.
I want the memories to stop. I don't want to keep remembering the insults said at me and being scared as a little girl. I don't want to remember being threatened and being scared she might kill me.
I don't want to remember being in the park and...
So I told my mom that I had been feeling anxious this past year and had talked to a doctor. Then I told her that I went to a school counsellor and that memories started coming back. I told her that I think a man touched me when I was like maybe 3-4.
So what does she tell me, well all students...