overdosing but not dying

it is now or never. my dad who raped me is going to court i want to die i feel trapped i am getting judged and yelled and hit for escaping which was fucking hell.. why am i so stupid? all i want is for my daughter to be safe and not in unsafe situations and i am getting fucked over :( I also...

Okay, I was searching methods of suicide when this popped up. <mod edit - methods> I've been considering suicide for a rather long time, but I'm extremely scared of dying (I think?). I guess it's a "cry for help"? I want to attempt but I don't want to die; I want to be found. Ive told my...