I am struggling because of major depressive disorder, anxiety, hypomania, chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. I dread every day and cannot find purpose. I feel tremendous guilt and worthlessness because I am not working and on disability. I have five more years until I can get on full...
I have done so many unforgivable things in my past to people that I loved. they hurt just so I could relieve some stress. They let me put them down so that I could feel good. They let me hurt them so that I could feel okay. But i didn't realize that these things weren't okay!! I thought I was...
Today my therapist and I talked about how I came to have such a low opinion of myself (self-hate). She said because of how I was treated as a child by family and others, their negative comments and treatment became internalized into negative self-talk and perpetuate my self-hatred.
Last night I felt this sinking feeling coming over me, an intense sadness and aching in my heart that's so familiar because it's been a part of me my whole life. I'm falling back into the pit I just climbed out of after a wonderful week of feeling at peace and even happy.
I've been on this...
I am starting to experiment with makeup, well eyeliner.
I am not really sure why I am.
I wonder if having a boyfriend has anything to do with it.
@Petal thanks for creating the other thread. I really enjoyed reading everyones responses.
So yesterday I went to a peer support group for the second time. I really enjoyed it.
We did topics again. So everyone wrote a topic down and put it in a basket and then we talked about them.
It is like SF except IRL.
So if anyone is considering going to one go give it a try.