suicidal thoughts

For my entire life, I've felt like I've been surrounded by negativity. As a child, it was abuse and home and bullying. As an adult, it's the same. Now that I've lived a little more and went off to college, I'm realizing I am the problem. I wish I wasn't. I feel terrible for the way I make other...

Just took an AP Calculus AB test that was so fucking hard and I studied for an entire week for, I got 24/50, and I don’t know if I’ll even be able to pass the class, I have no idea what to do, I’m a HS senior, I’ve been an A-B student up to this point, save a couple of C’s a few quarters here...

I wish I could distance myself from thoughts about the future, but I can't. I might not want to necessarily be alive, but there is so much more to do and see and experience. There are beautiful things and there's joy and without a doubt, there is peace that can be found, and will be found for...

First of: is it okay to double post because I've already recently made a thread here? If not, sorry :( Things have gotten worse. Not as in something bad has happened, just... I feel way more useless than ever. And I find no joy in anything. I don't want to finish this semester. I don't want to...

Even when I won't have to remain with my parents anymore, I'm going to need plenty of professional help and psychiatric care after I leave the family. At the moment, I'm looking at being referred to a neurodiverse mental health team and entering a neurodiverse residential mental health care...

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Hi :) I had this idea and I thought it might be nice to try it out. Okay, how lifeline works is that you send a message to the last person to post in the thread (the post can be about how your feeling) so that you can check on them and make sure that they’re not doing anything harmful. The...

I don't feel like I have long left. I don't want to die, theres lots of things I love in life - but the pain is too great for me to keep going. Every time I have even a slight problem, my immediate thought is "Well, I can just kill myself to avoid this". I'm so exhausted. Hating myself every...

Everyone is going to die anyway, it doesn't have any preorder, reason, plot or anything, you can be living for two days and die, or you can live for 80 years and see everyone else die. So why should you care? Why should I care? Its meaningless, tiring, hopeless and, in the end we will just end...

No matter how many people compliment me or my work, or tell me I matter or have skill in something. I'll never believe it. I'll never be good enough for myself. I can't draw well or write well. The characters I make and the ideas I have are all awful, all I do is just copy ideas from other...

I haven’t sat down to look at the sky in a very long time. It reminded me tonight that I am alive. But I don’t remember what *alive* feels like. Do you? I look up and think about how I could climb up a tall roof and take one step... maybe I wouldn’t fall. Maybe I could join the birds. Who...

It’s no surprise that I want someone to see my pain. So many people want this otherwise this website wouldn’t exist. I tried to get drunk this evening to escape my reality and then self-harm... but my body physically rejected the alcohol. And it wasn’t even that strong... so then I tried...

I am in a rut. I took a few months off to care for my father while he recovered from cancer. Now it's time for me to go back to work, but I don't want to. I've wanted to leave for a while now. I have the option to take an immersive 3-month course. I used to look forward to the idea of this...

I am almost 30 and unemployed. My experience of life has never been that great. I am really shy, introverted, anxious, very pessimistic and an extremely negative thinker. I have no idea what I should do in life and I have no real interests. I have never been in love, never been in a...

Is wanting to die because the pain is too much the same as wanting to disappear? Sorry if this is not a clear question but I'll try and explain. I just noticed that most people that are suicidal have so much pain that they want an end to it. I for one am not in the same kind of pain that one...

(Maybe triggers) Here's the background: Because of the coming September 10th (the Teachers' Day in my country, teachers were celebrating), all the students in my school had to study without stopping for about 6 hrs. That was a painful experience with difficult math problems. btw I remembered...

I fucking made my daughter cry. Why why why why did I do that? She needs love more than anything right now and I know this and still was a bitch to her. Mean, couldn't get on her level and didn't even try!! So disgusted. Why do I fret about her emotions then turn around and say/do such selfish...

It’s been two years and my roommate still makes an effort to remain ignorant about MS. I tried to help him understand by talking, sending articles, and the fact that I tremble non stop and fall at every opportunity doesn’t seem to phase him. Just now he told me that he ran into someone I know...

My parents think that I am getting better, nearing the end of depression, but little do they know how I am still suicidal. I can't tell them because they'll be hurt yet again and the entire cycle of guilt would be repeated. Meds are working, undoubtedly, but now that my self-written book is...

No friends. That's right, none. I am not joking or exaggerating in the least bit when I say this. People don't dare to be around me. All throughout middle and high school, everyone on campus has always put in their best effort to stay away from me. I've also never had a GF. All around me, I seem...