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suicidal thoughts

  1. gray_now

    Lifeline

    Hi :) I had this idea and I thought it might be nice to try it out. Okay, how lifeline works is that you send a message to the last person to post in the thread (the post can be about how your feeling) so that you can check on them and make sure that they’re not doing anything harmful. The...
  2. gray_now

    I feel nothing

    Honestly I just feel so indifferent towards life now. I just don’t care anymore, I feel nothing. Even the stuff that I used to look forward to and enjoy doesn’t make me happy anymore. I alternate between misery and feeling nothing. I don’t know what to do. I don’t even have anything to look...
  3. Soda-Voxel

    I'm running out of time.

    I don't feel like I have long left. I don't want to die, theres lots of things I love in life - but the pain is too great for me to keep going. Every time I have even a slight problem, my immediate thought is "Well, I can just kill myself to avoid this". I'm so exhausted. Hating myself every...
  4. TheChimeraMonster

    if Its just a matter of when, then why should people care If its now?

    Everyone is going to die anyway, it doesn't have any preorder, reason, plot or anything, you can be living for two days and die, or you can live for 80 years and see everyone else die. So why should you care? Why should I care? Its meaningless, tiring, hopeless and, in the end we will just end...
  5. Soda-Voxel

    I'll never be good enough.

    No matter how many people compliment me or my work, or tell me I matter or have skill in something. I'll never believe it. I'll never be good enough for myself. I can't draw well or write well. The characters I make and the ideas I have are all awful, all I do is just copy ideas from other...
  6. Sewicide

    Empathy Only I look up at the clear blue sky and I wonder if I can fly

    I haven’t sat down to look at the sky in a very long time. It reminded me tonight that I am alive. But I don’t remember what *alive* feels like. Do you? I look up and think about how I could climb up a tall roof and take one step... maybe I wouldn’t fall. Maybe I could join the birds. Who...
  7. Sewicide

    Empathy Only I realized I don’t want to disappear—I want to be found

    It’s no surprise that I want someone to see my pain. So many people want this otherwise this website wouldn’t exist. I tried to get drunk this evening to escape my reality and then self-harm... but my body physically rejected the alcohol. And it wasn’t even that strong... so then I tried...
  8. alixer

    I'm scared that I don't care anymore to get better

    I am in a rut. I took a few months off to care for my father while he recovered from cancer. Now it's time for me to go back to work, but I don't want to. I've wanted to leave for a while now. I have the option to take an immersive 3-month course. I used to look forward to the idea of this...
  9. M

    Why should a person like me live?

    I am almost 30 and unemployed. My experience of life has never been that great. I am really shy, introverted, anxious, very pessimistic and an extremely negative thinker. I have no idea what I should do in life and I have no real interests. I have never been in love, never been in a...
  10. W

    What's the difference?

    Is wanting to die because the pain is too much the same as wanting to disappear? Sorry if this is not a clear question but I'll try and explain. I just noticed that most people that are suicidal have so much pain that they want an end to it. I for one am not in the same kind of pain that one...
  11. Raven

    When they tell you how they're feeling...

    (Maybe triggers) Here's the background: Because of the coming September 10th (the Teachers' Day in my country, teachers were celebrating), all the students in my school had to study without stopping for about 6 hrs. That was a painful experience with difficult math problems. btw I remembered...
  12. Lastsunset

    Overwhelmed and drowning

    I fucking made my daughter cry. Why why why why did I do that? She needs love more than anything right now and I know this and still was a bitch to her. Mean, couldn't get on her level and didn't even try!! So disgusted. Why do I fret about her emotions then turn around and say/do such selfish...
  13. D

    Frustrations on the homefront

    It’s been two years and my roommate still makes an effort to remain ignorant about MS. I tried to help him understand by talking, sending articles, and the fact that I tremble non stop and fall at every opportunity doesn’t seem to phase him. Just now he told me that he ran into someone I know...
  14. CoffeeArtist

    I'm not getting better

    My parents think that I am getting better, nearing the end of depression, but little do they know how I am still suicidal. I can't tell them because they'll be hurt yet again and the entire cycle of guilt would be repeated. Meds are working, undoubtedly, but now that my self-written book is...
  15. Z

    No friends, no love, no hope

    No friends. That's right, none. I am not joking or exaggerating in the least bit when I say this. People don't dare to be around me. All throughout middle and high school, everyone on campus has always put in their best effort to stay away from me. I've also never had a GF. All around me, I seem...
  16. NRW24

    I don't want to live

    I am a failure and a disappointment, I am just living here to waste my family's resources. I likely will never find a job. Nor I will ever love someone or be loved by someone. My parents hate me and I hate myself. I don't see why I should continue. I'll never be happy. I'll never make another...
  17. LelDaFish

    I stopped myself but I wish I didn’t

    I almost killed myself last year and I stopped myself last minute. I wish I would’ve pulled through and done it but at the same time I’m glad I didn’t. I love my family so much but I hate my life and the choices I’ve made. I would make another attempt but my family would mourn me and I’d never...
  18. A

    I owe money to a person who is violent and threatening me

    the person is my father, and I’m so scared. This is my first time posting here, after this forum was recommended to me by someone on another forum I visit. I have been in such a desperate frame of mind for the longest time, and I would give anything for therapy, but I have no health insurance...
  19. reapersweep

    Give me a reason

    Give me a reason to live through today. Maybe something that can get me through this week when the feeling should, hopefully, become more bearable. It can be anything. Something that makes you want to live, something good, something worth living for. Just not family related.
  20. reapersweep

    I shouldn't be here yet here I am

    It's confusing. The feeling that I shouldn't be here, shouldn't be alive. I screwed up my fate, like straying off the path in the woods. Now I'm lost, stumbling through life and can't find a path to walk along. When I was young, maybe only 12, I was suicidal. I was worried that dying would be...
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