Hai there everyone. First of all let me introduce myself. My real name is Josh. I'm a 17 year old guy residing in Texas. As is probably given away via my username, a small fact about me is that my favorite animal is a wolf. I'm sure I'll be revealing more and more about myself as this post goes on, (It might go on for a while, I don't know yet.) basically I'm just here to vent, get input on some things I deal with, and hopefully share my thoughts with others on their situations. As this is a suicide forum, I feel I should reveal why I am here, though it seems to be somewhat obvious. I've suffered from, what feels like, (I haven't been clinically diagnosed) Major Depression for the past 3 years, as well as what seems to be Bipolar Disorder. Though that may just be sudden onsets of depression, as my happiness can easily span from a couple hours or a couple days, then dramatically change within a matter of minutes into a major depression that spans hours, days, weeks, or even months before I see a shred of happiness again. I've been self-harming myself for the past 3 years as well, the medium of which I choose is a razor blade to my skin. Particularly in the thigh region. As is to be expected, I have accumulated my fair share of cuts over 3 years. I haven't always kept count, just over the past year or so. Just to give an idea of how bad it gets, each "session", I guess you could call it that, accumulates ~100-200 cuts. The times I cut are fairly random, but just in the past month I have kept count of over 1000 cuts. So keeping that count, 1000 a month, over the course of three years, tallies up quite a ridiculous amount of cuts. Not trying to get too personal here, just introducing myself, trying to let everyone know my situation, and hopefully I can help some people out as well as get some myself here. Things to note. I enjoy long, meaningful conversation, all types of music (Not all types I will listen to by choice but I won't refuse to listen to a genre if someone wants to listen to it.) Though my favorite genres are Hard Rock, Electronic (Trap, EDM, Dubstep), Rap, and Metal. What I listen to on a daily basis, quite honestly, depends on the drug I'm doing that day. For example, if I am smoking pot, I like rap. If I'm railing some yay, I like Hard Rock and Metal. And if I am tripping on acid, I listen to lots of Electronic music. So yeah, that's about all I have to say for this post. Hopefully I can make a few friends here and get some deep conversation going, as I do a lot of thinking during my days. (Probably a permanent side effect of all the acid I take.) Cheers everyone, w0lf.