Hello, I'm nearly 20, my birthday will be soon, but I wrote different date in my registration form, because I want to be anonymus as I can. Right now I'm in one of the biggest cities in the world, and maybe not in the biggest trouble but my circumstances do not have any other route. Actually problem is that I don't have any food, money, opportunity to work, and I live on "birds rights". I've alrady made a decision to kill my self because even if I will survive I understand that I wount be able to provide good life for my children, if I will have any. My girlfriend is really beautiful and she is catwalk model, my parents are sucessful people. But few years ago I decided to build my life on my own and to move to different country. These days my parents have huge problems with money, because of crisis and they going to devorce, they think that everything is fine with me, because I telling them that way. I just can't tell to my parents that I have problems like that, I dont want them to send me money because they need to feed themselves and my small sister. Even for the last month I broke all contacts with them. As I love my girlfriend very much I decided to tell her that we can't be together any more, I understand that it will be very painfull for her, but at least less painful if she will know that I'm dead, and I want to secure her from any damage that she would do to herself after that. (She is 2000 miles away so there is very little possibility that she will know.. and my parents also. I have planned everything alrady.) I have small question about pills that I have at the moment. Is it possible to kill myself with "iboprofenum"? I just have alot of these pills and I made a reaserch on them, it states that overdose will lead to coma, but nothing is written about death. I will do everything silently, there will be very small chance to know who I am because I'm going to destroy all my belongings like passport, cards etc. Nobody will find my body at least for few days. Please recommend something that will make me uncontious instantly, and after will make the rest. I will try to find it somehow. P.s. All I want to say is that I'm very serious I've alrady made a dicision that i will commit a suicide if I wount be able to change my situation (I really trying to change it). I'm not fat or ugly men that sitting in front of laptop every day/evening/night and writing this just to hear that life is beautiful and I don't need to do that. And sorry for my english, it's not my first language..