I do care, like 'scum' says (by the way 'scum', i put your name like that, because i don't think you are scum :hug: )
To be honest your mum sounds a bit like my mum, although the reason why is different.
My dad had an affair on and off, since before i was born.. it came out in the open just over a year ago. My mum took it bad (understandably) but she failed, and still does fail, to see how the whole affair affects me. If i try to talk to her about my feelings, she somehow manages to turn it around to all be about her. I've given up trying now.. it's just not worth it.
I know our situations are different.. and you may be wondering why i've shared a bit of my story with you.. but i'm trying to say that life does go on. And i'm not trying to sound insensitive. I do realise the immense amount of pain you must be in right now. Sure i could kill myself to get my mum to listen to me.. but what would the point in that be? It seems that both of our mums are so wrapped up in their own pain that they fail to see there are others who are hurting just as badly.
Our mum's won't or can't listen to our pain right now, but others will listen. People on this forum, for example. Counsellors, your doctor, friends. I know that it may not be the same as having your mum listen and show support, but it is more than possible to survive with other support around you. Please, get yourself a good counsellor.. i've got one and it's a saviour having one hour a week where i can spill my heart out and not be judged or made to feel guilty.
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