10 week Suicidal Prozac update.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by WannaEndit01, Oct 7, 2016.

  1. WannaEndit01

    WannaEndit01 Well-Known Member

    Decided to give a 10 week update. First approximately 10 weeks ago I tried to kill my self several times but quit 1/2 way through. I started taking prozac about then as well.

    Where am I now. Well if 0 is attempting to kill yourself and 10 is no depression what's soever. Most of the time these days I am a 9 with scattered 10.

    What has changed? A couple things:

    1. I made changes in my life that I could and they have helped.
    2. I am taking prozac.
    3. I learned all about my depression type. I am a ruminater of tragic events that changed my life 30 years ago. When I ruminate I remember them as if it happened yesterday. I found this website called:


    I did the FREE part. The depression learning path. It was right on target for me. So now I fight ruminating. It's a battle. But I want to ruminate to try and fix things, change things. And that's the problem. I learned on the above website, rumination lead to deeper and deeper depression.

    No why do I ruminate? Because I have some current serious life issue I need to tackle. Instead I try to ruminate on what could have been, "if only", and I would not be in this positions.

    What I really need to do, and I am now trying. is continue to fight. That is what I am now trying to do. So hopefully between the prozac and fighting rumination I will be able to go forward.
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Wow. I am really proud of you, you are on the right track, I am glad the prozac seems to be helping, I am also trying to make changes in my life, just stay positive and focus on the good. Well done you. Maybe you should make a post in strategies to success to show others that it can and does get better?
  3. WannaEndit01

    WannaEndit01 Well-Known Member

    To early to post success. Today was good. tomorrow could be bad, and next week worse. I don't think tomorrow will be worse. I going to a dock party, but you never know.
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  4. Brian777

    Brian777 Safety and Support Forum Pro SF Supporter

    Great to hear Wanna :) you're on the right track my friend.
  5. Wallace

    Wallace Member

    Try studying mindfulness if you want to be able to break the ruminating pattern.
  6. WannaEndit01

    WannaEndit01 Well-Known Member

  7. IdontMatter111

    IdontMatter111 Well-Known Member

    Thank you very much for the depression learning path WannaEndit01