:cry: Blah stupid self pitying pity crap, grr venting, sorry. What's the point? Why do i do this, bring it all on myself, stupid, bad person through and through and that isn't changing any time soon. Failure failure failure. Stupid, stupid, need to be punished, really should be. Don't even have anyone to do that anymore, not like I'll find someone now. And I can't do it, I shouldn't but then why not? What's the point? Really?