I'm back to thinking and knowing its me. I'm in the wrong. I can do no right. I know nothing, am an ignoramus. I fail at things, I continuously fail. I'm sorry I'm not like others. I'm just not. But that doesn't matter because its not good enough anyhow. And it will never be, I will never be. Feeling small as a speck tonight. Beaten down, worn out and very melancholy. The "bad" thoughts are back. But how can they be considered a negative if the results are positive for me? I wish, I dream and tonight I long for this not to be anymore.