Not a bloody clue what to do. Fucked up as bloody usual. Where to start...let my friend know vaguely about tonight, had to, she'd notice if I wasnt there, wonder what had happened and I had to, had to make sure she knew it wasnt her fault. She's freaking but what can i do, i cant stay here just for her anymore I cant. Im scared of what she'll do...what the hell do i do? Ive tried to make her hate me, Ive been trying but nothing works. I cant stay here and I dont deserve her. Damn. Btw, cant be bothered signing in..take a wild guess.