I'm kind of shocked how quickly today went downwards. I received some news and it has really affected me negatively. And as the evening has gone on, I've been struggling with strong SH urges and more. I know its a day at a time and all of that sage advice. But my mind doesn't cooperate with that reasoning. The future seems impossible and without reason. How can I go from a time of being relatively good/okay to absolute crap so quickly?