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Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Butterfly, Feb 24, 2014.

  1. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    Feel like such a failure :( I feel like I shouldn't even exist :(
     
  2. Freya

    Freya Loves SF Staff Member ADMIN

    What's wrong honey? :hug: you are not a failure at all!
     
  3. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    Struggling at work. I've lost all my confidence and feel completely incapable of anything. Today wasn't even that busy a day. I mean I got all my jobs done, but just have no confidence in myself. I can barely string two sentences together to my work colleagues. It's like I've lost the ability to speak or do anything. I just feel like shit. I should feel happy as I passed my dementia course assignment with good feedback. But I still feel crappy :(
     
  4. Twocky61

    Twocky61 Banned Member

    I agree with Freya; you're not a failure Butterfly

    :freehug:
     
  5. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Your feeling about you are not true they are just depression telling you lies hun I am glad you did well on your dementia project because that shows you You are intelligent hun and you do care about your work hugs to you
     
  6. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    I don't think they are necessarily not true. It's true I've lost all my confidence and I am struggling to get back into the swing of things. At the moment I'm almost like obsessive over what tasks get done and how. I guess in reality I worked like a machine yesterday because we did have a nice day albeit busy. When I look back I see it was a busy day. I just have no confidence left in myself, and I'm struggling to even talk to my colleagues about the simplest of things.
     
  7. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    Just want to cry.
     
  8. NYJmpMaster

    NYJmpMaster Have a question? Message Me Staff Member Forum Owner ADMIN

    I am not sure if you have considered this , but perhaps is not coincidental that theses feeling s are coming about a week or 2 after stopping your anti-depressant ? Might be worth considering.
     
  9. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I hope you can cry then hun let out some of the sadness all ican say in time that confidence will return to you just keep listening to your collegues to what they have to say about you ok hugs
     
  10. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    Maybe, but I don't feel depressed as such and I dont feel like this all of the time so I don't think it's down to stopping the anti depressant. In fact I feel loads better after stopping it. It's just every time I go to work, I feel so hopeless and have no confidence. I'm sure it's a feeling that will pass with time. Just have to suffer in the mean time.
     
  11. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    I've had a much better day today. More like my old self :) I also had a lot of reassurance from my colleagues :)
     
  12. NYJmpMaster

    NYJmpMaster Have a question? Message Me Staff Member Forum Owner ADMIN

    :cheer: I am glad it was better and hope you will have many more better days
     
  13. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    Me too. I was really beginning to doubt myself but today just took all that doubt away. I was talking to my work colleagues about my self doubt and lack of confidence and they told me to stop being silly and that I am a good nurse which was nice to hear.