Right now. It's all I can think about. He talked to me almost all day over the phone. Tonight, an hour ago, he put down the phone, left it on, did not say anything to me....and he had company. Called them the special nickname he called me. Tickled and got...affectionate. I was shocked, I didn't want to believe he'd do that to me--just toss down the phone and have me hear it all. Our relationship was a twisted scheme he wanted, and he's treated me like garbage but....that was the last bit. He's so nice to them and he's so mean to me. They've done so much to him and he doesn't care. I've lost a year of life, good grades, respect of my parents....so much, gone, believing he loved me. He doesn't love me, he loves hurting me.