Exactly one year ago (19th July 2014) I came so close to succeeding with the first attempt. Not a day goes by without thoughts about it and how it would have saved alot of problems. Now a year on the pressure to do something is still there. Living in a perpetual state of fear/anxiety/depression and other things is getting a bit weary. I have also been diagnosed with dissociative disorder which is interesting but hardly helps the current situation.