-Parents are divorced
-Having trouble focusing on School
-My Looks/Personality
-Admitting to myself that I might be bisexual…:unsure:
I’ve been depressed for some years now and I seriously don’t think I can take it anymore. Everything seems so meaningless to me.. And what was the point in the first place?? =(
It all started way back before my parents got divorced. And of course, I was not too happy about the idea but I couldn’t really force them to stay together when they hated each other so much! Anyway, I do admit it did made me feel worse, and it was times I wanted to just do ‘it‘. But then again, I couldn’t let my siblings suffer for my mistakes. That would be incredibly selfish of me.
My mother’s always working 24/7, we’re also dealing with money problems as well.
My father is always talking about mom behind her back, spreading shameless rumors to make her life feel more complex. Then it already is They both had been trough a lot and the police got as well got involved. It was the hardest parts of my life. I can’t believe I’m still breathing..
I also hate my looks, how my eyes are compared to my forehead. Every time I look myself in the mirror I want to puke. I’ve also been gaining weight and am starting to get a little chunky. Sometimes, I want to show a knife trough my throat but I don’t know if I can go trough the trouble…
So should I get help.. or end it just here.. which seem more logical I think :mellow:
-Having trouble focusing on School
-My Looks/Personality
-Admitting to myself that I might be bisexual…:unsure:
I’ve been depressed for some years now and I seriously don’t think I can take it anymore. Everything seems so meaningless to me.. And what was the point in the first place?? =(
It all started way back before my parents got divorced. And of course, I was not too happy about the idea but I couldn’t really force them to stay together when they hated each other so much! Anyway, I do admit it did made me feel worse, and it was times I wanted to just do ‘it‘. But then again, I couldn’t let my siblings suffer for my mistakes. That would be incredibly selfish of me.
My mother’s always working 24/7, we’re also dealing with money problems as well.
My father is always talking about mom behind her back, spreading shameless rumors to make her life feel more complex. Then it already is They both had been trough a lot and the police got as well got involved. It was the hardest parts of my life. I can’t believe I’m still breathing..
I also hate my looks, how my eyes are compared to my forehead. Every time I look myself in the mirror I want to puke. I’ve also been gaining weight and am starting to get a little chunky. Sometimes, I want to show a knife trough my throat but I don’t know if I can go trough the trouble…
So should I get help.. or end it just here.. which seem more logical I think :mellow: