I am such a fucking loser... i cant get anything right even killing myself... how fucking hard is that.... fuck i am stupid....
Was my mom b-day yesterday and she didn't want to talk to me... only thing she told to to do is to put up some food thats it... no fucking hi NOTHING... so i didn't even get the chance to say happy b-day to her and i just know she is going to bitch because i didn't say it but fuck she didn't give me a chance or even a moment to say it...
My dad is pissing me off so much all he does is talk and will never shut up and if i do get him to shut up then he will ask whats wrong?? and crap like that and keep fucking talking... all i want is quiet right now but fuck no it cant be quiet he just has to keep fucking talking to me....
I'm still hurting from my last suicide attempt that failed miserably... and im a dumbass for not getting it right... and you know what? im probably going to try again once i am to afraid to just pull the fucking trigger and end it...
wow i am fucked up... :sad:
I didn't go to school today i just stayed home and didn't do anything except watch stupid T.V. shows... and get on the computer... :dry:
I'm getting really really mad and i think its because i haven't smoked in a while.. i really need a smoke but wont get one until i talk to one of my friends.. it sucks... hopefully i can find something to do until then but if not im just going to get really pissed off
Also im listening to more triggering songs right now so that isn't helping me at all... well if anyone actually reads that crap sry for wasting your time and if i don't make sense... :sad:
Was my mom b-day yesterday and she didn't want to talk to me... only thing she told to to do is to put up some food thats it... no fucking hi NOTHING... so i didn't even get the chance to say happy b-day to her and i just know she is going to bitch because i didn't say it but fuck she didn't give me a chance or even a moment to say it...
My dad is pissing me off so much all he does is talk and will never shut up and if i do get him to shut up then he will ask whats wrong?? and crap like that and keep fucking talking... all i want is quiet right now but fuck no it cant be quiet he just has to keep fucking talking to me....
I'm still hurting from my last suicide attempt that failed miserably... and im a dumbass for not getting it right... and you know what? im probably going to try again once i am to afraid to just pull the fucking trigger and end it...
wow i am fucked up... :sad:
I didn't go to school today i just stayed home and didn't do anything except watch stupid T.V. shows... and get on the computer... :dry:
I'm getting really really mad and i think its because i haven't smoked in a while.. i really need a smoke but wont get one until i talk to one of my friends.. it sucks... hopefully i can find something to do until then but if not im just going to get really pissed off
Also im listening to more triggering songs right now so that isn't helping me at all... well if anyone actually reads that crap sry for wasting your time and if i don't make sense... :sad: