Hi, lately I've been feeling empty as if I don't have much of a purpose anymore. I go through each day the same, nothing happens nothing changes just the same lonely me. I've been depressed for a few years nothing long term it would last a few days and then go away but come back. Lately I've been severely depressed for over a month non stop. I've grown away from my friends and stopped seeing them outside of school mainly because it made me feel worse seeing how they all have been in these long relationships. My friends tell me all the time that i need a girlfriend and its not like i should be having trouble with it, but mentally im split because I want to be in a relationship with someone but yet at the same time i'm afraid of a broken heart and i don't know what would happen and i don't think i would be able to trust myself after wards. My mom is depressed and she takes medication for it. My brother when he was around my age, tried to kill himself. I started doing drugs in order to feel normal and not this emotional wreck. I started doing Codeine which is a low grade morphine and for the first time last week i started smoking weed (something i thought i would never be doing) My life at the moment has just been on a steady downhill slope and this is the first time i've felt that i needed help. I don't cut myself, and i would never in a million years tell my parents that i need a therapist because it would make my mom feel even worse. I've just been needing some advice and possibly somebody i could talk to.