I have no future. I can't think of one point in life I've been truely happy. Most of the times I act happy..it's nothing more than what I said..a "Act". Ever sence I left elementry school I had nothign but bad luck or misfortune..same thing. I lost contact with the outside world due to my parents basicly locking me in my room. Never letting me out. Even up to this age now..Sad but true. I had only one good friend in life. I didn't even get to say good bye..The only person I could have spoken with and now he's gone..I have no one who can relate to me. I hide my sadness and anger well enough..or rather long enough to lock my door and let it out silently..I'm tired of this. My life isn't worth living. I been kicked out of school in middle school and highschool. I have no chance for a education. I turn 18 in a few days. I have no friends to hang out with even on birthday. My family is poor and dosn't care about me so it's jsut another day to them. I'm anti social due to the fact i've been ignored by everyone or 2 faced by anyone I ever was close to. People I use to call my friends hate me today..I'm good at nothing. I just sit around and watch t.v and think about my life. I have no good memorys. I can't think of ONE THING. NOT ONE!..No previous birthday memorys. Fun times hanging out. Family memorys..NOTHING. I really don't see why im on this world. I have no reason. I'm useless. No one cares about me. I have no friends. No one to speak with. My parents dont give a damn about me. They never let me out ebcause they think I'll do something bad. The thing that bothers me most if you havn't noticed is maybe my memories and I have no one..I hate being alone..I've always been alone..I don't want to be alone anymore..I want to end this pain and sorrow..I don't want to turn 18 like this..