I finally made an appointment to see a psychiarist, and it's stressful & scary at the same time. I know the doc won't solve all my problems & I can anticipate in general the advise she might give. Part of me don't see the point in going, and I'm afraid of the stigma & consequenses if my family found out. Getting treated would probably prevent me from acting on my thoughts, but part of me doesn't want the prevention. I'm scared of and dread the possibility of being committed or hospitalized, yet part of me wants that, if only to replace one problem with another. Anyone had similar thoughts?