I havnt been on here for a while... it's been two months since I tried. i keep thinking what would have happened if my best friend hadnt called at that time. I overdosed, quite dramatically, nothing existed to me anymore. ended up in ER with a gastronasal tube, not that i remember any of it. lying in the hospital after that i didnt know what to feel, to think, to say, to anyone. I will always remember the look on my mums face when I came to in intensive care, she just couldnt deal with it, at all, she just sat there in silence all day. its been two months, and i still have nightmares every night, I'm so completely lost.