so its been 2 weeks since i cut. Ive literally just been through a week of absolute hell and I was tempted,, but I didnt do it. Im going to go through a lot more in the coming weeks as im going to be loosing someone im very close to. Im numb right now. I quit smoking, but it lasted only a week, daft i know but id rather smoke than slice my insides open. im throwing it away next weekend,, going to give it a viking burial I think! the only time ive been as alone as know im going to be was in prison and in truth, in prison your NEVER alone. Thanks though guys for all your support, i know im intermittent here and my consistency is shit, but thats a part of who I am.