Looking at jobs in the paper, and i dont know what to do. Not qualified to scratch myself quite honestly, only sales, customer service, some admin. All low paying shit jobs. I know im going to have to do something like that for a while, 12 months or something to accumulate some money but then what? Gonna do that shit for next 30 years? Id rather top myself now then face that. I have no idea what i want to do with the rest of my life, presuming i actually want to go on at all. Sometimes i think ill do a web development degree, well paid, allows me to travel and move around, but then I realize i dont really have that kind of mindset...sometimes i think ill do environmental science, cause im a bit of a greenie, and its an exciting time in that area, but then i realize its just a passing interest. There the only 2 things, out of thousands of options, that i can even think of. Then theres finding the money to do these things...I already owe a fortune, living of welfare and credit for the last 6 months. Should declare bankruptcy, but then im stuffed for the next 7 years. Fortunately mummy dearest will bail my pathetic little arse out to some degree when she gets her superannuation (some of the debt is hers admittedly) I have no passions, I have no interests, Im just a shell of a person. Everything bores me, even games bore me to tears, and that was something i could always rely on to waste a few hours. Even if by some miracle i find something that can occupy my mind for any length of time, it still all comes back to people. Im such a fucking lost cause nobody would ever have any serious interest in me...lets be honest. Ive got absolutely nothing to offer, blah blah, get the violins out. What a fuck up. What a pathetic little fuck up. Such a wasted life Dont even think i want to talk to people anymore, its fucking embarrassing to go on breathing. If i had any honour at all I would take the honourable way out. The planets already overpopulated, people like me should be deleted. Ya I posted shit again, shoot me if you like, i really dont give a fuck.