21 pregnant, boyfriends wants abortion, i just want to die. This is the first time I've been here in a while. I've been on antidepressants for almost 4 years now and stopped over the summer because I ran out and couldn't get ahold of my psychiatrist. I thought I was doing well without them so I just stayed off of them... I hate relying on meds to get through the day. I just found out I am pregnant on Friday. My boyfriend and I have been arguing nonstop about abortion and keeping the baby. My one friend wants me to keep it and is concerned about the psychological effects of abortion, but my boyfriend doesn't want the baby and wants me to have an abortion. I don't know what to do. If I kill myself now, I don't have to deal with making the decision and my boyfriend and my friend won't be disappointed. And I won't have to deal with a baby by myself or with the father who will resent the baby and me for having him or her. I really need some support.