The thoughts are back again with all their intensity. I can't sleep, or even think about something else. Thoughts of suicide and of death are dancing in my head but I know that I won't be able to complete it even if I started. I feel so alone, like nobody else could feel my pain. I kept cutting today, it's the only thing that keeps me sane. I looked for some pills but there weren't any. I need some distraction but there's none. I just want to dissappear.