Well, I am getting old. In May I will be 22. Life seems so pointless now. I don't want to end up being alone like my mother. A good man is hard to find. I had found somebody and he wasted my time. Instead of spending my 21st summer finding a mature guy who would probably marry me, I spent it with an 18 year old who only wanted to play games. I am so stupid. When you are a woman, it seems that every years gets worse and worse. Unless you are a celeb to pay for a bunch of restylane all the time, count on being older as getting worse. Sorry for the negativity. I am just so down right now and broken. I can't see a way out of this.