Hey. Just letting you know I feel like shit, on the verge of suicide, not feeling well, crappy, shitty, down, depressed, paranoid, anxious, scared, sad, unhappy, unwanted, rejected, hurt, crying, bleeding, pained, tearful. a shadow looms over me, soemthing that has been by my side, unwanted, for many years. This is not something you can whisk away with words, this is not something people can help... people have helped, but only slowed its progress, never stopping it. My mind is deteriorating, i get worse every day... i cant live on... leave me alone.