and i so badly want to snuff it... I hate my birthday, it really sickens me. i don't deserve any recognition on that day for the horrible things i've done in my life. More than any other time of the year, this time makes me reflect on this intense loathing of myself more than anything. If there ever were a day, it'd be my birthday to grow a pair and take my last breath on this forsaken planet. it's been so hard to focus today, i can't think of anything but finding a way out asap... how do i get thru this? i guess i'll persevere thru it so i can torture myself for another year. sounds like a blast. :boogie: <-- this guy looks more like he's falling over himself drunk than dancing the "boogie" as they call it.