2nd time around

[blackfire]

Well the second time was no better. I od on pills and cut to get as much blood as I could to exit my body. Two days have past and I feel terrible. It always feels good at the time and crappy afterwards.

 

[stillhere]

dont do it again!

 

[blackfire]

It is an addiction

 

[~CazzaAngel~]

Awww hun, I am sorry. Must be hard. :hug: :hug: :hug:

 

[blackfire]

It sucks and I can't stop. Even if I wanted to.

 

[missbee]

I recently tried my 2nd overdose aswell, I know how you feel about it feeling good at the time but nasty afterwards.

Thing is this time round with me I feel happy about it because I did some real damage to myself, which is weird and no-one can understand it not even I can 100%.

 

[ace]

I've never tried to od but have been so tempted to,I've thought about it so many times and really don't know why I never have tried.I still have a fair few old med's in my possession and perhap's one reason to of not disposed of them by now is because of that.:ohmy:

 

[blackfire]

missbee

what damage did you do to yourself. Deep down I wish it would have been the end. I am glad I didn't tho.

 

[jane doe]

and i´m glad too, for you.

 

[TLA]

blackfire-
It may be an addiction, like with drugs, cutting, smoking, etc...BUT You can cut it down, little by little by little. It is hard and a bitch at times, just don't let it get ahold of you more.:sad:

Hold that demon, ha...but really I do understand. The brain must have something to do with the changes from pleasure to digust cuz many of us go thru that. :huh:

Stay safe! :smile:

 

[missbee]

The drugs I took made my eyes spasm for 3 days, I was unable to control what I looked at and my pulse was at 200-160 beats a min for 2 days (meant to be at 60-70 beatsper min) They also think I have done some damage to my liver but thwy say this can be repaired over time I just need to look after myself.

I'm now withdrawing from all the medication. heart palpatations, feeling cold then really hot, muscle spasms, and dizzyness! It's all fun where I am at the moment and to top it off my "lovely boyfriend" keeps telling me I deserve to be miserable.

 

[blackfire]

I have never had those syptoms. I am glad your liver will recover over time. It is too bad your boy friend feels that way toward you. take care.