Well the second time was no better. I od on pills and cut to get as much blood as I could to exit my body. Two days have past and I feel terrible. It always feels good at the time and crappy afterwards.
I've never tried to od but have been so tempted to,I've thought about it so many times and really don't know why I never have tried.I still have a fair few old med's in my possession and perhap's one reason to of not disposed of them by now is because of that.:ohmy:
It may be an addiction, like with drugs, cutting, smoking, etc...BUT You can cut it down, little by little by little. It is hard and a bitch at times, just don't let it get ahold of you more.:sad:
Hold that demon, ha...but really I do understand. The brain must have something to do with the changes from pleasure to digust cuz many of us go thru that. :huh:
The drugs I took made my eyes spasm for 3 days, I was unable to control what I looked at and my pulse was at 200-160 beats a min for 2 days (meant to be at 60-70 beatsper min) They also think I have done some damage to my liver but thwy say this can be repaired over time I just need to look after myself.
I'm now withdrawing from all the medication. heart palpatations, feeling cold then really hot, muscle spasms, and dizzyness! It's all fun where I am at the moment and to top it off my "lovely boyfriend" keeps telling me I deserve to be miserable.