Ok so heres my update.... Im physically drained, sorry for myself of course, but worst is the effect it has had on my best friend- he always considered us as brothers. He is constantly unwell, sick or visiting bathroom a lot. Drinking a bottle wine each night plus brandy. He doesnt sleep properly. He us a mess. All my fault. Ive destroyed my relationship with the lady who came into my life only two years ago. And caused a huge explosion for her and ger family. So unfair we loved each other deeply but cannit be together now. If you wish to read the post in Crisus Forum ... My situation... Please understand. I deeply regret everything which has ledto this.