I'd like to think that i have a bit more on my plate than the average person does in terms of problems. Where do i start? i'm a young adult and have two brothers that are a few years older. About 10 years ago one of my brothers was diagnosed with Schitzophrenia(spelling?) and as if it weren't bad enough it devastated my other brother (they're twins) almost as much because of the fact that the one who got schitzophrenia was the outgoing, dominant leader and the other one was the quiet, timid follower. so it crushed them both very, very hard. Now me, i was force-fed by a babysitter when i was about 3 years old and it went on for about several months and ever since then have been a picky eater, i have tried some foods i don't eat and it's as if my mind is too involved, and is telling me to not eat it because it might not be safe, i might throw up, etc. (i never throw up, am not anorexic, etc.) so my range of foods is very limited. heres the funny part: both of my parents were very thin until their late 20s early 30s. so in other words, that is the "perfect storm" for a person to be extremely skinny, as i am. The weird part is that i am also extremely healthy, it is very very rare for me to feel the slightest headache, cold, fever, etc. I hate being skinny and have been on a couple of diets to gain weight, but the problem is that i have to eat often like 6 times a day and with my very limited food range, it is hard because i get tired of eating the same old stuff. there are certain things i don't get tired of but they are expensive/dont have enough protein and/or fats in them. i have been floating at around the same weight range for years. i can gain 8 or so pounds but i can't go beyond a certain weight. i dropped out because of depression which started when i lost my 4th best friend in about 4 years due to moving (since then i haven't had any friends outside of school and the internet), which caused me to do bad in school. i want to go to college and get a job but i need to deal with my weight problem first. i've even felt like taking steroids before but i wouldn't allow myself to do that. but the more time passes the more depressed i get. i love so many things in life, including several foods, sports teams, music, video games, cars and i know i am a very smart person, i have so many different career paths i wish to pursue but i am being held back this problem and i feel frustrated without any motivation. please help.