I want to die. I've been fighting for so long now. Every time things seem to be looking up, I just fall down again, harder than before. I haven't got a fucking clue how long I can keep doing this. It's costing me so much energy to even think of tomorrow. Every damn day again. I'm just... tired. I can't even get the support I need, simply because I can't get the things that are bothering me, out of my mouth. I just can't talk about it. I can write about it, sure. I can type about it, sure. But I don't have the energy to get online. I just can't. I don't understand it myself. I have energy to be around people IRL, but I can't talk to them, because my mouth won't let me. I can talk to people online, but then I can't because I can't be online much, due to lack of energy. This doesn't make any sense does it. I'm just so tired. And alone.