all feelings i once felt are gone. i stoped cut for 2weeks and it was hell but when i returned to it i found that there is nothing there. the blood means nothing the feeling of my skin tearing apart all does nothing. cuting used to be the 1 thing that made me feel alive feel something and now i dont have that. i think all of my cuting was just numbing for the day i end it all. if cuting doest even work seeing the blood pour out the skin rip the frech laying open than whats left? i nevr thought id get to this point. when i have nothing and i feel nothing i always had cuting but now i dont have anything no1 cares no1s there y keep tring. i kept myself alive for others cause they said they "needed" me. but what about me cring in the bathroom bleeding sliceing till i feal alive and now thats gone looks like theres only 1 thing left...........................pick that blade up 1 more time and end it all.