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[butterflies32]

For those who have read my post that cerise wrote My parents are not in. Infact I am on my own which is why I am posting.

I am a failure. I have let people on here down annd now I am going behind my parents back but I can't cope anymore. I am on here in desparation. My life has gone downhill since I left. I lost my job due to too many people and I have an ED appointment next week that Iam not even sure I want. My life is not worth saving anymore.

The noose is ready just got to be tied to something high up. The pills are lined up. And I am on here. This is so fucked up. I don't even know how I am on here posting. I am just so tired. I am a hypocrite and an idiot.

I am pro ana/mia and I am no use to anyone. I need something..........................but what?

Take care everyone

Sam
xxxx

 

[Beret]

Im sorry you are in a state of despair atm. Dont overreact. Try to distract yourself. DO sth that pleases you (a walk, good music or a good book). You say you have no friends, but know your parents love you. Give them a call and tell them how shitty you feel. Let someone take care of you. If you think you cant do it then call a crisis help line and talk to them.
Wish you all the best, we are here for you.
:hug:
Beret XX

 

[kenny]

It always causes me pain to read of someone in this emotional turmoil and my instinct is always to reach out to those in pain. i get frustrated that there's nothing I can do to help.

Please hang in there, it will get better.

 

[butterflies32]

my parents would never trust me alone again and I would be a prisoner. Death is better than that. They will also blame this site I can't have them doing that. I can't use crisi lines coz I can't speak on them. I feel so stupid.

Death is the only way. I tried last week and it didn't quite work now I know how to do it properly.

 

[nagisa]

PM me anytime, sweetie. Please, please don't harm yourself. I'm here for you. I'll listen to you and help in any way I can. Please stay safe. :hug: :hug:

 

[gentlelady]

Sam, if you need to seek medical attention please do that. Your life is worth saving. It is your depression that is causing you to think otherwise. Keep your ED appointment. You do have issues you need to come to terms with.If you need to seek out your parents for support then do so. You say they will never let you be alone again, but as an adult they really would not have that option, so it wouldn't be forever. We are here to support you and do what we can. Please take care and stay safe. :hug:

 

[notwanting2live]

Sam, Please stay safe sweetie, please do. I no how you feel about not being able to reach out to my parents for support. also about being on this website, although my parents dont no about it this time, but i still have to hide my laptop, incase they hack into it. trust is a big issue, to have between parents and child. most parents dont trust. but if you are in serios crisis and are going to harm yourself, please seek some help, from anyone, like family, or even your parents. if not, and you feel unsafe, take yourself to A&E they will help you. Im not sure if they will have to contact to your parents or not, but the majority of the time they dont, all you need to say is you are out somewhere, if you can. i dont no your day-to-day life so i cant say much but i just hope you can stay safe.
PM me anytime sweetie, please post as soon as you can to let us no your safe

Take Care hunni x

Xx Sky xX

 

[butterflies32]

I am here. Though not for long. I have a date and a method.

Gentlelady what medical thing can I get. I have been in therapy for 6yrs and none of them did anything. What is going to change now. I told them stuff about plans and stuff that I thought that I was depressed but they did f all.

I do not know how to cope anymore...I don't even no what is making me like this.

Sam
xxx