Chapter 4 : After reaching out for help
After reaching out and being ignored, everything changed, the first days I felt so much anger and disappointment, then every little thing around me started to fall apart, from personal to professional issues, it was like life was leading me to the darkest pit, where hope fades, where no one can hear you where no one sees you and slowly you become a memory
I know now I am a memory, they all loved the Enrique who was fun, active, smiling and laughing all the time, but when they saw the Enrique who was depressed, they chose to stay clear from him. They didnt want to hear about my feelings, how depressed I was, They didnt want to lend their shoulders for me to cry, they didnt want me to interrupt their lives with my sadness
Slowly day after day I was sinking deeper into the pit, then I found myself somewhere else, I realised I was somewhere else, I was in a place where there are no feelings, no pain, no anger, no disappointment ....it is a place where you realise your soul has been broken so bad that you cannot feel anymore
I wish she knew how close I am to the edge, I wish she knew soon I will close my door forever
After reaching out and being ignored, everything changed, the first days I felt so much anger and disappointment, then every little thing around me started to fall apart, from personal to professional issues, it was like life was leading me to the darkest pit, where hope fades, where no one can hear you where no one sees you and slowly you become a memory
I know now I am a memory, they all loved the Enrique who was fun, active, smiling and laughing all the time, but when they saw the Enrique who was depressed, they chose to stay clear from him. They didnt want to hear about my feelings, how depressed I was, They didnt want to lend their shoulders for me to cry, they didnt want me to interrupt their lives with my sadness
Slowly day after day I was sinking deeper into the pit, then I found myself somewhere else, I realised I was somewhere else, I was in a place where there are no feelings, no pain, no anger, no disappointment ....it is a place where you realise your soul has been broken so bad that you cannot feel anymore
I wish she knew how close I am to the edge, I wish she knew soon I will close my door forever