Over the last 14 years i have Survived 4 attemts :sad: The 1st was a O.D all i remember was waking up in hospital. The 2nd was a hanging my flate mate was ment to be out but come home before he was ment too with his girlfriend. The 3rd was cutting the police spotted me the doctor told them 30 secounds later and i will have been died turned out the police wanted to pull up and have a smoke. The 4th went to cut again but got to pissed to do it and fell asleep. So as you can see i am so fucking useless i can even kill myself i all i want to do is die on my own nice and simple. No matter what i do i allways end up hurting others or getting hurt myself. When things start to go right for me and i start to think my past is behind me then it ends up with me getting hurt even more. people are allways telling me things get better but things dont get better only worse for me. I am so tied off all the pills/pain/hurt/bad dreams and the voices that are wispering inside my head but most of all i am tied off waking up every day knowing things will never get better. i hate myself for being so weak and useless the best thing for me is to die at lest i be out of pain.